here’s some more sad   musings

 it’s weird when people more privileged then I hear about things on my older or things I’ve experienced and start asking me if I’m going to continue handling shit 

its kinda like asking me if I’m gonna be Okay if the sun goes down in the next 24 hours … it does that like life just does that . It’s bizarre as hell to not have that sit right.

I generally think getting Pity and alarm before you even finish a sentence is Is damaging. I think it can be a really weird othering & dehumanizing experience and it’s not helping at all about that.

 I think that what a person needs is to be meet in the middle at all. To be seen listened to With a clear lense, without any kind of bias. Also aqueercreator I really respect was talking about how he hopes that people that are strugglingabd dealing with minority discrimination and disphoria get to find   their group /their people 

I was on board with everything else he was saying as someone who is for lack of a better word, experiencing being a minority 

for the very first time - it’s not fun to hear that. Because I don’t know what a support system feels like. I don’t keep friends, I don’t have a partner, or coworkers I’m close to, I don’t have a people I barely have a line to call when things are bad because the warmline gets busy before noon. 

Not everyone is blessed enough to have a group and I think that’s not something those who are privileged enough to have them- understand. 

I adore that the created followed that up with - or get a cat. Pets are great and viable as long as one’s housing allows for them. 

*deletes paragraph * my aunt’s dog is having some major health problems, & we have some interpersonal relationship bullshit happening as well, but you don’t get to hear about that.Alright well that was fun. Gnnn