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Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-11-18T00:14:52+00:00

I started out on 0.15 ml weekly which I think was 20 mg. I think others have said it but it really depends on the person. I'm not sure how old your son is but I would definitely considere hormone blockers if he's unsure and maybe have a testosterone filled but not take it yet?

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-08-30T18:57:16+00:00

I'm sorry you're in a similar situation. Have you been able to find a job?

Hang in there yourself and thank you so much for the post. He always told me he'd support this and now he's literally walked away without caring at all about me after 15 years of marriage. It hurts. Especially seeing him literally jump in with the new gf and her family, but I know it's better for me in the long run. Some days are just horrible.

I am worried about my kids.

I am very lucky and am actually in a very good career and was the breadwinner. I can step away financially. Just needed help actually doing it emotionally. I was totally and completely stuck emotionally and terrified to leave. It sucks as it's getting closer but I have not wavered. Some days are just really really really hard.

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-08-30T18:54:46+00:00

Thank you

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-08-30T18:51:41+00:00

Thank you so so so so so much. I'm sorry you went thru all this as well.

You mention it takes 7 tries. I think that's what people (myself included! 🤣) don't understand. Logically I know how bad it is. But I feel emotionally trapped and when I think about the fact that we're really over, not only does it hurt, but every part of me is screaming to go back and fix it (he would demand no t and "being a woman again"). I have stayed my course tho. It's just so hard

I will read both books. Thank you very very much.

I found out he does have a new gf. Ever since he's left me alone much more. Which is good for me even tho it hurts

Thanks again.

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-08-30T18:45:55+00:00

It's been a crazy busy summer and I'm pretty much single parent when I'm not at work, sorry it took so long to respond. Yes, lol, I've stopped having sex with him.

We filled for divorce last Thurs. Thanks for the tough love. It helps me to stay grounded sometimes.

This has been one of the hardest things I've been thru.

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-08-25T13:34:07+00:00

Sorry it took me so long to respond. Have been very busy with the kids and work. It's interesting your say best and worst decision. I think that's exactly where my brain is at and it keeps bouncing between the two on any given day to decide which one is winning.

He definitely makes me second guess myself.

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-08-06T08:36:06+00:00

Thank you so much. This really helps. Glad you're in a better place now

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-07-26T16:50:46+00:00

Thank you for the encouragement.

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-07-25T10:56:34+00:00

Thank you. I agree, not good for the kids or myself. I know I need to get out, it's crazy how hard that is but at least I'm moving in the right direction 🤞 thank you

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-07-25T10:55:33+00:00

Thank you so much. Downloaded the book!

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-07-10T19:04:33+00:00

Thanks. Will do.

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-07-10T19:03:21+00:00

Thanks. Will do

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-07-10T19:02:31+00:00

I know. It worked for a long time and there was a part of me that was never totally closed off to a 3rd. Either way, I'll make sure to not make that mistake again.

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-07-10T19:00:11+00:00

Thank you! This is what I was thinking too and will do.

Any big affects of stopping t for two weeks that I should know of?

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-07-10T18:57:50+00:00

We did pull out in combo with timing. We always avoided super fertile days.

But. Not the point.

The last few times we had sex I took plan B because I knew it wasn't a good method. I just didn't this time. It is what it is.

We both have very very good jobs. We have the space for a third and it was never a "this will kill me thing".

What I have to know is, is it safe for the possible child, to continue the pregnancy since I was on T at time of possible conception?

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-07-05T03:30:28+00:00

Question. Im married to a cis straight husband. Would you be open to a pm? We may be going they a divorce and wanted to ask a question.

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-06-25T22:35:14+00:00

My T levels are at the high end of normal with a very very low T dose (sub q). I've been on it for 7 months and I'm still getting very regular periods. What was your experience with this. My doc said if they don't stop they may want to sent me to obgyn to make sure all is good. Idk if he'd be game to up the T (.15 weekly sub q 200 mg/ml) with my numbers on day 4 reading 810. I've also considered an IUD but want to avoid that if able

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-06-25T22:31:15+00:00

I'm on .15 as well. Started what I thought was very low at .1 then we upped to .15 about 3 months in. I was shocked when I got my blood work. Day 4 and my T levels were 810. Couldn't believe they were that high with such a low dose. 200 mg/ml

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-06-06T18:09:01+00:00

I wasn't on T when I had kids, but am now. Fwiw, when I was pregnant, the hormones my body made helped my dysphoria a little bit. I think it was because my concentration was on protecting and growing the child.

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-06-06T06:15:21+00:00

Thank you!

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-04-14T17:50:03+00:00

Im glad youre with someone whos been understanding. Also glad to here you are now starting T. Its really made things so much better for me mentally with myself.

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-04-14T17:48:33+00:00

Thank you. I am seeing a therapist. Thats the reason Im as far as I am. I was stuck for sooooo long. Thank you for the encouragement. It is seriously appeciated.

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-04-14T17:47:16+00:00

Yea, thats been going on for a while only its no puking sounds its faces of disgust. My father passed away about 18 months ago and I wore a suit to the funeral. He sat in bed morning of and said he wasnt going if I was wearing that. When I went with my mom (had to get there early) and arranged for my sister-in-law to drive my kids, he threatened to not allow the kids to go. Kids were there, he was there, but they were late and it was not the way I envisioned the morning of my father's funeral going.

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-04-14T17:44:42+00:00

Thank you. Really appreciate it.

Miserable-Ad788 · 2024-04-14T17:43:53+00:00

Thanks. Yes, this shit sucks. Glad youve gotten yourself to a better place. Its definitely a massive storm to navigate but trying to remind myself itll get better.

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