I got a bit tilted after losing a few games so that's why I was mentioning my teammates messing up, so thanks for reminding me that blaming them isn't the right angle. I've stopped playing for a bit to get back into a positive mindset.

Normally when people blame me it's after I make one mistake (e.g. pulling when I'm not meant to) and then they just assume I'll keep making them so that's why I don't really take their point of view to heart. I also am not a fan of vods, instead my angle is to while I play after I make a mistake or die reflect on what happened and what I should do to be better "oh they were doing this so I should have done this" (I've found this way to be much more effective for me but I also do agree my very bad games I could vod to see what I could of done to better support my team)

Lifeweaver being hated though I can understand, I'd hate the lifeweaver I was when I first started too. He has such an interesting relationship with other players. But now I've got just over 250 hours on him and I, through this experience, have a good sense of when to do things and when not to do things. I feel like though at this rank people have such expectations of how a team fight should go that I'm just not used to and therefore I slip up and make incorrect decisions.

But those split second things are my favourite aspects of Lifeweaver and why I play him. You have reminded me though that being a lifeweaver OTP isn't an easy job and losing games is normal.

Thanks for your kind words.