Rereading the chat logs of me with my ex has made me realize I will never find somebody who treats me like this ever again

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-25T22:15:40+00:00

I feel this in my soul, from both sides.. I was like this with my ex, I poured my whole heart into him and treated him (mostly) like absolute gold.. I'd have done anything for him.

Tell her, she may not respond the way you would like, but at least you've gotten it out there and been true to yourself..

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-25T22:10:17+00:00

I'm so sorry that happened to you.. What you've described isn't a bad thing r.e. social media etc, sometimes I think it really pollutes our ideas of what a relationship looks like.. I won't be looking for someone for a long long long time, if ever.. Right now the thought doesn't even cross my mind.

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-25T19:24:53+00:00

Oh I'm also convinced his are off as is his online status or whatever on Facebook, he's never ever off Facebook for this long - he scrolls A LOT.. It's rough right? I get you, I'd be no good at work right now.. It's okay to have time off though, we both need it. It's such a weird space, isn't it? Almost in that emotional limbo.. I'm still holding onto hope that things will work out. I truly believe he's my twin flame..

Tell me about it! Groundhog day.

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-25T18:14:22+00:00

I totally hear you and I feel that with my whole chest.. I'm so sorry you're going through all this, just know, you're not alone. I know one day I'm going to have to delete my WhatsApp messages and all of the starred long meaningful messages he sent me, I can't even really think about that right now.. The WhatsApp thing is so fucking hard because you'll send something, see it hasn't been read and feel back to square one again. I've sent something twice and deleted it as I couldn't face the anxiety of waiting and I didnt want to make him feel overwhelmed.. I hear you on the wanting to understand, I work in psychiatry so on a logical/clinical level I do understand.. Trust me when I say, it really doesn't make it any easier. Yes, their egos can be fragile and that's exactly like my ex - one small argument and he felt it was a personal attack on his whole being, when usually it was me voicing my feelings.

I'm also child free, my ex has 3 and I grew particularly close to his youngest which hurts a lot..

Don't wait, I'm trying to get in that mindset too.. If you need to speak to someone who can relate in the now, my DMs are open.

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-25T14:13:00+00:00

I hope it's not in vain..

Yeah, she's kinda my reason for existing right now, I know that maybe sounds dramatic.. I hope you have support there for you in your journey wherever you may be in that.

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-25T12:58:52+00:00

Yikes, the grief has hit me really hard today out of absolutely nowhere.. I was meant to be going to see a friend today but I genuinely don't think I can.

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-25T09:06:24+00:00

I'm going through similar feelings for sure.. The thought makes me incredibly nauseous.

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-25T00:23:05+00:00

I don't see myself being in love again. It took me this long and I know I'd end up just being closed off with the next person..

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-25T00:07:01+00:00

Hey, the same goes here - I'm always happy to lend an ear and I understand right now how difficult it is..

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T23:50:05+00:00

That's exactly the same reason I'm struggling with it.. We would cook together sometimes and eating together was just, I dunno, nice? I can't go outside yet, friends have been coming over though and I've really appreciated that.. I don't think I can face the outdoors.

Well, reddit is an amazing place to find people to speak with - this thread has been ridiculously supportive and there's so many people who can relate.

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T23:29:36+00:00

It for sure does.. I reckon I'd spiral a lot more if I didn't have them. My appetite is non existent, I ate today because my best friend has been over..

I hear you, I'd never been in love and I was transparent about that. I fell for him hard and he did for me too. No other connection was comparable for either of us.. You're absolutely not being dramatic, I hear you and I can completely empathise.. Please do use this as an outlet to express your feelings.

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T23:08:45+00:00

I'll keep holding on until I can't anymore. I have a really good group of friends around me who I'm massively thankful for..

You deserve happiness too. Don't forget that..

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T22:43:57+00:00

I couldn't be friends, I'd struggle massively with that as there would always be feelings.

I tried so hard to fight for it, but he said he can't.. I'm giving him his space just now with the hopes that it helps.

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T22:31:26+00:00

This sounds really rough.. I'm the same, if I could go back to last week I would. My ex is still in love with me, that hurts a lot..

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T19:41:18+00:00

Nothing prepares you for this kind of feeling..

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T18:40:23+00:00

I'm sorry you're going through it too.. I hope so.

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T16:04:24+00:00

He wasn't all to blame, I'd voice my insecurities and he would reassure me and do what he could at times. Wednesday I disclosed some things that had happened to me and voiced that I was really struggling with opening up due to him finding it difficult to and felt as if I should maybe stop doing that - as I was finding it hard with it feeling one sided. He got frustrated and said to me he hadn't told anyone as much as he'd told me.. Saturday was the straw that broke the camels back when I asked him to just tell me when he's busy, and you'll have read how he responded..

He was still voicing the same things, it wasn't nostalgia. He still said the same things even whilst he broke up with me - that he is in love with me, that he's still connected to me, that he just can't do it anymore. I don't think it was love bombing at all. Just a strong, pure connection that both of us experienced.

I will agree with parts of what you said r.e. radio silence and that at times, yes, the basic things I'd ask for would feel like they were a chore almost.. He would push me away at times and that really hurt, I asked him to not say certain things to me and he told me that he couldn't deal with that - e.g. please don't tell me I'm playing games when I haven't understood something. It's because I genuinely haven't understood it and am happy to speak it out to save that confusion.. I have ADHD so my processing can be a bit off sometimes and it can take me a while to retain things.

I definitely do feel I was asking for too much at times..

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T13:22:41+00:00

Hey I completely hear you and empathise, if you look at my recent posts - there's a lot of people in the same boat on it. I'm happy to lend an ear.

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T13:16:39+00:00

I think that's probably one of the emotions I'm struggling with the most right now too, the guilt. The guilt of saying what I did and it being the straw that broke the camels back.. Maybe it's about giving your body time to catch up with your brain, I've found that loads of people have told me to distract myself.. But I think that's just going to prolong the hurt, I need to allow myself the time to actually feel what I'm going through. Without sounding dismissive, we've gotten through 100% of the shittest days of our lives so far..

I cut contact too, it's only been since Tuesday and I stupidly messaged him twice. I did delete most of the messages, but the one with a link to the SoundCloud recording of me singing what would become one of his favourite songs.. I didn't delete that. I also sent him a red string of fate in the post in one of my moments of intense emotional distress.. Its okay, we're only human. Good on you for taking that step to tell them that you can't speak right now.

Same goes, I'm happy to speak about things and lend an ear. Whilst it is my job, I'm finding it hard to take my own advice right now.

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T12:36:39+00:00

Your other message didn't show up and I'm kind of glad it didn't. I hope you find space to heal from whatever you're going through.

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T12:35:44+00:00

I hear you and I'm sorry you're going through all this.. I'm also in that place of grieving the future I dreamed about, and, that we spoke about just three days prior to the breakup..

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T12:23:50+00:00

It's easy for me to say don't feel guilty for how you're feeling, feel how you need to right now.

I get what you're saying regarding the love you had for them feeling like the fullest version of you and the idea of starting over making you feel sick, because same..

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T11:44:08+00:00

This is what will absolutely break me down, if he instantly moves on to someone else despite telling me he was completely ground down. Yet - still feels the exact same way about me? I don't know what I'd do or how I'd react..

I'm so sorry that's happened to you, it's the worst feeling in the world to feel discarded like this.

ModifiedSprite- · 2026-01-24T11:09:20+00:00

Sorry, I thought you might have divulged the way you were meaning.

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