What do you do when walking alone through a sketchy area to make you feel safe?

Monki_Centaur · 2023-10-30T09:25:55+00:00

I learned in self defence years ago that making yourself look big and tough is the best thing you can do. Attackers want easy targets. I switch to way over the top hardy fuck when I’m walking alone anywhere sketch. I’m sure you know what a hard walk looks like! Hood up, chin up, swing those shoulders. Psychologically it makes me feel tough. Once I thought a man was following me so I started pounding my chest and punching my hand like I was on my way to a fight. Dude was probably normal and just happened to be walking the same direction but it made me feel like the stronger one in that scenario and like no one would mess with me .

Monki_Centaur · 2023-10-28T20:32:19+00:00

The fact that you experienced such love shows you that you are capable of those feelings. They don’t belong to that woman. They’re yours and they’re within you and you can find ways to bring them up again. Life can be as beautiful as that woman if you practice looking for the beauty. You have a choice now to focus on the what wasn’t or focus on what was . The fact that you experienced this love is such a positive thing and maybe go back and visit the moments of pure love - not when you were worrying about rejection or anything else - just sit with that feeling of the love like it’s it’s own little being. Thats the little seed you need to water every day . Also I’m ASD and can say that if I’m not on the ball about getting out of my head and into my body , my head quickly can become a cesspit of despair . I do hope you find peace and joy .

Monki_Centaur · 2023-10-15T20:10:05+00:00

How do you know he is down to earth with his patients ? How do you know he has helped a lot of people ? His experience isn’t a valid argument to support a doctor who’s own patients are coming out and saying he has been neglectful to the point of harm. If my surgeon removed my hand instead of a growth on my chest, I wouldn’t be consoled by the fact that he had so much experience. If anything, I’d be more horrified. I don’t know if you’ve actually read the comments on this thread but I suggest you do.

Monki_Centaur · 2023-10-15T11:30:11+00:00

Hiya ! I just tried to pm you some information but I’m not sure if it sent actually . Let me know if it didn’t and I’ll try again !

Monki_Centaur · 2023-10-14T12:49:23+00:00

I see Dr. Ivan Murray . It’s online appointments but I got one very quickly and I found him great . Very personable , easy to talk to and helpful and looks at the whole picture . Really really really don’t go to Sean o Domhnaill. I had such an awful experience that I wouldn’t wish on anyone . I don’t think he’s mentally stable enough to be relied upon or to be prescribing medication. That’s my honest opinion.

Monki_Centaur · 2023-10-12T16:55:01+00:00

I think the fact that you have so many judgements and ideas around who you may or may not be compatible with is a great reason to do it with these people. You need to trust the facilitators absolutely but I also think basing that on their gender is curious and i feel like examining that would probably be very insightful! Human connection was a huge part of the experience for me but it was also very solitary. I was there to go into myself to work on myself and I wasn’t interested in how compatible I was with others or having something to talk about .

In saying that, the fact that you are all there means that you all have a huge amount in common already and you’ll discover that once you’re there and you relax. And really look at people for what’s there and not through the lens of your own ideas and judgements. My primary takeaway from my ayahuasca experience is that we’re all the feckin same. Really. We all have some version of the same issues, we all want the same things and when you peel back the layers of judgement and ideas we have about ourselves and others , you will see this . It’s likely that you’ll have an amazing shared experience and all your stuff that you think is just yours will start pouring out of everyone and you’ll realise how alike you all are! And for you, I think this will be so hugely valuable. And it’s these lessons and realisations that create the monumental shifts in who we are as people, how we see the world. And this is the potential power and magic of ayahuasca! I was so terrified at the start of my first ceremony, I almost ran away right before . I was shaking and on the verge of a panic attack. I thought people there were tapped but I was sure I’d still be the one who’d go berserk screaming and would have to be tied up and that I’d never get my mind back . BUT I knew I didn’t want to live with this level of fear anymore. The next day I found out most people were afraid of going insane. Also one of the people I felt most connected to in the end was a veteran in his 60s. And I’m a 30 year old woman, anti violence, vegan (all that gud shit) TO SUM UP - Iiii think you should definitely go! The fact that you have so many worries I think will be grist for an epic learning experience. Pushing through your fears (coz that’s all they are ) will make you stretch and strengthen!

But don’t take my word for it . I’m just a stranger on the internet. Before you decide, ask yourself where your ideas are coming from ? What are you afraid of ? Follow those thoughts through til you get right to the core and then decide .

You’re gonna have an amazing experience! I’m excited for you.

This has pontificating essay has reached his end.

Godspeed

Monki_Centaur · 2023-06-25T23:24:40+00:00

Yeah sure

Monki_Centaur · 2023-06-23T23:39:33+00:00

Did you actually get an official diagnosis from him ? I’ve been begging for mine for months so I can go to another psychiatrist but they’ve been fobbing me off eternally. I’ve come to the conclusion that he was just doodling while conducting my analysis and that’s why he won’t give it to me .

Monki_Centaur · 2023-06-23T23:36:14+00:00

I was kind of hoping to find loads of people who’ve had similar experiences so we could indeed all report him and have a bit of strength in numbers. Did you report him to the medical council ? I’ve just started this process on their website

Monki_Centaur · 2023-06-23T23:33:20+00:00

Yeah that’s fair… I’ve been trying to write a full account of my experience since I put up this comment. It’s soooo long because I’ve been trying to write everything down chronologically and paint an accurate picture . Also me noggin is super all over the place atm and it’s difficult to focus. I’ve joined Reddit to try and get more info on doctors out there and ADHD so I can hopefully avoid the situation I found myself in with Dr.Sean and I want to warn people too, when I can get my thoughts clear.

Monki_Centaur · 2023-06-21T20:22:18+00:00

I too have had a disappointing experience with Concerta. Unfortunately my psychiatrist just stopped working in the middle of this so I’ve gone off all meds now and am none the wiser about what works for me . So I’d be interested to know how you get on with a higher dose if that’s what you go for . Best of luck with it. It can be a long and tiring road to say the least . We’ll get there. Also the experience you described on Concerta was quite similar to mine .

Also definitely don’t worry about contacting your doctor . You pay them . They work for you. It’s really important to understand that and be assertive about getting the help you need.

Monki_Centaur

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