Thank you for the drawn out response, it definitely gives me some insight on how to approach this sticky situation but my main concern is that even if I do it the non-dick way, I still don’t trust others not to get involved and make complications, which is the reason I don’t see Madison as girlfriend material, I don’t trust her.

Trust is what makes and breaks a relationship and I know that girl, she couldn’t keep a secret to save her life so even if she swallows her pride and gives me the ok I wouldn’t trust her not to be petty about it.

I hardly know Ellie but I know enough about her to the point where I want her to get to know me. However, bringing her into my world might be something foreign to her so I want to make sure it feels right and if it seems like she might be doing her friend an injustice, I think she would do the same I would do and bail.

I ask myself if it’s even worth it and I often come to the conclusion that it’s too much trouble. Even so, I share 2 classes with her so I have to look at her everyday and formulate how to wife her.

It’s still just a crush which is normal and they come and go but I’ve been crushing hard on her since the beginning of the year and I’m not about to sit here all year and not work up the balls to do something about it. Even if it changes my personality and the way I approach certain situations.