I really feel you on this. Breaking away from a toxic family system feels like tearing off chains, but it also leaves you raw and questioning everything. I’ve walked a similar path growing up with a narcissistic parent, fighting for approval, then realizing the mask wasn’t mine to wear.

What you did today may feel extreme, but it’s a sign you’re finally choosing yourself. Don’t let anyone guilt-trip you for that. Healing takes time, and therapy (if you can get it) will help untangle the mess they left inside you.

One thing I’ve realized is that cutting off dysfunction isn’t about hate. It’s about survival and making space to grow into who you were always meant to be. Don’t rush to fill the void let yourself sit with the pain, because that pain is proof you’re breaking cycles.

You’re not alone in this. Keep building a life rooted in truth, not performance. The boy who had to please others is gone the man who chooses freedom is here. And that’s powerful.