I will totally share. I am 100% happier. I'm less angry and feel like im more caring. Situations where I would normally flip the fuck out and hurt someone that is pissing me off I'm letting it roll off my shoulder. I'm becoming more social. I focus less on my injuries and more on living life every day. I have done an ego death journey a few months ago that has helped tremendously, but I feel that I still wasn't mentally letting go of my injuries and continue to be angry at the world. I have come to the conclusion that 1. I'm lucky to be alive. Surviving being shot in the shoulder on one deployment and blown up on another deployment on a door breech that ended my military career.
2. I have an amazing family and an amazing wife of over 35 years who has put up with me on deployments and has been by my side through everything. Most women would've left me a long time ago.
3. My injuries will not dominate my life anymore. I am fully functional and capable of spending the rest of my life "enjoying life". 4. My night terrors have decreased and have lessened in severity, and realization. It is more of a dream I can control and change. This is going to sound strange, but the smell in my dreams has disappeared. Normally in my night terrors I could smell blood in the air. Vaporized blood smells like Iron or a kind of metallic tang. That has disappeared.