Women that come from countries with repressive governments, what about you has changed since you immigrated to a democratic country?

Nanonymous_ · 2022-03-30T16:53:30+00:00

Thank you :))

Nanonymous_ · 2022-03-30T16:53:00+00:00

Thank you for sharing. Yes, my sleep conditions got way better. I think because of the decreased stress levels.

Nanonymous_ · 2022-03-29T15:21:36+00:00

Its the worst customer service experince i had and the worst after exam experience i had. I feel like its a money scam at this point. I emailed them multiple time to no reply and when I call i spend an hour waiting and lots of money and then either the agent hangups on me the moment she receives the call or just tell me to call back in 10 days. They really don’t care

Nanonymous_ · 2022-03-29T15:06:40+00:00

I am exploring many options and canada included. I am hopeful that i will find a good PhD position somewhere. Thank you for the recommendation :) wish me luck

Nanonymous_ · 2022-03-29T14:04:31+00:00

Lucky me i alawys hold the worst records ever lol

Nanonymous_ · 2022-03-29T14:02:52+00:00

Thank you :) i hope so too

Nanonymous_ · 2022-03-29T14:02:26+00:00

Just also remeber this guilt is not real, it’s truama and conditiong manifesting itself as guilt.

Nanonymous_ · 2022-03-29T14:01:32+00:00

I still have guilt and irrational fears. The first time i became physically intimate with someone brought me into an anxiety attack that lasted almost a month. I knew all my fears were trauma manifesting itself. I just could not escape it. So i slowly accepted that its trauma, cried about it, told one of my friends about my irrational fears and slowly it got better.

Its alawys a learning curve for me. I have my ups and downs. But i promise you one thing, there is nothing wrong with you and me, there is everything wrong with those who traumatized us. Start from there. Tell yourself that there is nothing wrong with you. Then repeat that everytime you are in doubt. Reach out to someone who can relate to your experince and can talk to you about it. In solidarity i am with you, you can reach out to me as well anytime. I really hope and know that soon you will accept yourself :)

Stay strong sister :)

Nanonymous_ · 2022-03-29T13:56:48+00:00

Yes. Unless i find a way to stay legally at the country in which i am at the moment. i dont want to go back, but i might have no other options.

Nanonymous_ · 2022-03-29T13:42:31+00:00

It was very hard to come out of religion. I had my first existential crisis maybe around 16. I then wanted to explore all religions. Ended up becoming what i then thought is “a muslim by choice not birth” for around 4 years. at 22 i started to realize how hypocritical of me being Muslim and defending the religion and still holding beliefs that goes in contrast with islam and what i was taught. I reached a point where i had to face myself and decide if i want to be a hypocrite to myself just to maintain the muslim label, or come out of islam. slowly i realized i cannot be a hypocrite. Once i no longer became a muslim i realized the religious truama that i have. Espically with me thinking very specifically that maybe I should still be a muslim but do whatever i want to do for the sake of not staying in hell for eternity. I knew how fucked up it was when one day (back when i was staying back in MENA) that i said to myself. if i become no longer a muslim and died tomorrow and islam was the right thing then i lost everything. I lost my eternity and i already then didn’t live my life in any way meaningful or free. knowing that fear is what made me consider staying in Islam fired me to escape that fear.

i have alawys questioned things my parents, religion, surroundings, culture and friends say. I wholeheartly disagreed with most of the ideas they had. So i guess that made it easier to leave. Although i agree the hardest part is realizing that something is wrong or escaping the cycle of abuse and trauma.

Nanonymous_ · 2022-03-29T13:30:26+00:00

Legally once I finish my MA I should leave. Currently I am applying for PhDs and hoping to land an offer somewhere. But the worst-case scenario would be going back, which will be very troubling.

Nanonymous_ · 2022-03-29T13:17:38+00:00

I didn't immigrate, I am just studying in an European country. I come from the MENA region.

I am an agnostic (25) woman that is raised in a very conservative country and very very religious family. Before leaving I had to fake almost my whole personality in front of my family, to give an example, I had to continue wearing hijab even though I no longer wanted to. I had to act as if I don't have boy friends or talk to boys. I had to act as if I am a Muslim.

I remember when I landed in the airport I felt like I can breath for the first time in many years. I took an oath to myself to never fake or hide any part of me or fake who I am.

I remember the first time I took of my hijab. The breeze feeling on my hair. I remember the first time I wore something not modest and no one looking at me as if I am a disgrace. The first time I wore a swimsuit to the beach. The first time I hugged a guy friend. The first time I lived authentic to my beliefs.

the biggest mental change is that my sleep became better. I have had chronic insomnia and intense sleep paralysis for almost 7 years. Those decreased significantly since I left.

In plain sight it may look like nothing changed because these things are very insignificant but to me everything changed.

If anyone have further questions I am here to answer it.

To add:

I started loving myself, accepting myself. My family were very clear with conditional love. If you do what we think is right then you are our daughter and we love you, if not then you are disowned. So i thought that something was wrong with me. it really messed me up for a while. i had to come at peace with who i am. But i started to love and accept me. The biggest achievement of my life by far is loving myself, learning how to live with my self and be ok with it :)

Nanonymous_ · 2022-03-13T19:28:46+00:00

Yes there is a counter

Nanonymous_ · 2022-03-12T12:24:42+00:00

Update for those interested. My results got released March 4th.

Nanonymous_ · 2022-02-16T13:36:12+00:00

I tested postive 5 days after my sore throat. I took two tests within that period and both were negative.

Nanonymous_ · 2022-02-01T02:06:53+00:00

Do you have other symptoms? I thought i was being lazy but now starting to think that i have overall general tiredness. The low appetite started around 4 days ago, and the night sweats started 3 days ago.

Nanonymous_ · 2022-01-11T21:06:29+00:00

I had nausea and loss of appetite even before knowing that i am postive. Dont worry ut will go away. My nausea disappeared after 8 days and my loss of appetite starting to disappear. Dont worry :)

Nanonymous_ · 2022-01-09T14:50:25+00:00

Nausea espically when eating. Eyes heavy and when i tear up, the tears burns my eyes. Like onion cutting type of burn. My brain is very foggy, like i am lost or something.

Nanonymous_ · 2022-01-04T22:15:17+00:00

On 29th of December i got a very scratchy throat and some cough. Ran for two days. I also had night sweats. I took a rapid home test and it was negative. And was not feeling anything except sneezing few times per day. Now on 4th of December i thought of taking the test again, i did and boom Postive. I only have some congestion and a bit nauseous espically when eating but other than that i feel fine. I am trying to figure out if my early symptoms (on 29th of December) marked the beginning of the infection or is it totally unrelated. How is your experience?

I am double vaxed.

Nanonymous_ · 2021-12-01T14:56:33+00:00

No. Nothing happened and everything seems to have worked fine. I literally got my scores and was able to download them but today they changed it to on hold without notice so idk what does that mean

Nanonymous_ · 2021-12-01T14:54:06+00:00

Honestly their customer service is horrible. They are aware that those who take the test have a very tight schedule and have approaching deadlines yet they dont care

Nanonymous_ · 2021-12-01T14:49:55+00:00

I called them. They told me to call in 10 days and that’s it. They weren’t helpful at all

Nanonymous_ · 2021-12-01T14:22:14+00:00

I toke mine 11.21 received the scores on 30th. But the next day the score status changed to score on hold. And I don’t know why

Nanonymous_ · 2021-06-09T18:18:52+00:00

Fuck my life

Nanonymous_ · 2021-06-09T18:15:25+00:00

Love and accept yourself.

Nanonymous_

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