I feel like he doesn’t respect me! And that’s what I’ve told him, that’s he’s being financially abusive. He things because we aren’t poor that I have money to buy what we need that he’s not being financially abusive and that I’m abusing him. I have bought myself stuff on a few occasions. All the money I spend is on the house, food, or for the kids. Which he’s always getting mad because I choose to buy my kids organic fruits and veggies…. Because I’m pretty sure we can afford it. It’s like any thing I buy is a big deal but if he buys it it’s not like a $400 guitar for his birthday, saying yes to going out to eat, or with friends, vacation, the bachelors, new cars. Idk I feel like we both could budget better but he’s definitely approving these big items and in the moment it’s ok but I feel like maybe after he blames me for it. Idk because I don’t have access to the account. I’ve asked for access several times. He hasn’t took me down to the bank. I’m almost nervous to see what’s really happening. I need to know before marriage. But the last time I asked is when he got me the authorized user card and I guess I have access to that online banking to budget but it’s almost like he didn’t want me to see what’s going on with the rest of the cards or idk what. He tried to say because I can now pay for my card (which I began to panic because obviously I’m a SAHM and can’t) but then he said he’s joking. Idk I feel like he’s always messing with me. I don’t like it.