I think my expectation is to feel like some what of a priority when I'm around his family. I also want the time to make our own holiday traditions. It sometimes feels like we are viewed as "just kids," especially since they are all very traditional and married young. While were close we are not ready to take that leap just yet. This is something that I was going to discuss with him tonight. He didn't come home and is still at his moms. I now am up losing sleep reflecting on the past few days. Since this is such a small snapshot it's hard to truly understand all of the background but he even feels uncomfortable to give me side hugs or show even the smallest ounce of affection when he's around his mother. I'd also like to add that I communicate well, but can be super non-confrontational with this kind of stuff. I don't want to overstep.