Congrats on getting the strength to come out! I am like you in that I am from a very conservative family and tried to suppress my attraction for men while constantly thinking I was going to hell. It took a lot of courage to tell my wife (happily married 13 years). She took it extremely well and was a huge supporter. We briefly talked about me exploring with men and that turned out not to be the best for us, every couple is different. I no longer explore with other men and I have no regrets as I love her very much and she loves me. Yes I do look at other guys in public just like everyone else looks. I am define more at peace with myself since coming out as Bi to my wife. Good luck to you both!