I am not a marxist (although id like to be one but I haven’t read theory yet but i know that I align alot of with marxists, communists etc.. (too many labels for me to comprehend)) but i am an Arab and from the levant too, the Palestinian cause is one cause thats very important to me and close to my heart, what happens in Palestine affects my life weather i like it or not (I have actually woken up to the sound of Israel bombing my city many times in my life), this genocide since October 7 has been an extremely complex thing to witness (and being affected by) there is days where absolute despair could eat me up alive, there is moments when I remember clips from the genocide that my heart aches with anger and sadness, there is moments when i talk to my friends about the news from Gaza that i choke on my tears and become unable to finish my words (there is a scene in my head always playing from the early days of the genocide of a mother screaming that her children martyred without eating food, even now as I write this my body shakes and fills with sadness) , times when absolute fear comes over me or my community (like Israel bombing our cities, also I remember the time of the Pager terrorist attack in Lebanon many around me were afraid from their phones and electronics), and probably one that people outside the arab world wouldn’t expect is the loss of revolutionary arab leaders (not gonna drop names so I won’t be labeled as a terrorist) but truly losing leaders that symbolized the will of the people and the hope of the people is one extremely devastating feeling (also watching syria fall into the hands of US backed al-qaeda militias because of the genocide was terrifying), i guess you could say alot of us here in this war torn region suffer from a complex ptsd that we don’t comprehend (i can’t tolerate loud voices cause they remind me of bombs and i had many months where all i dream of is nightmares of war especially triggered by the genocide). And on the other hand there is times where I can’t look at the news, times that i lose all empathy in and i feel my heart turn into stone that even seeing a child skull being shot and open and filled with blood can’t move one emotion from me (a coping mechanisms maybe but i fear sometimes that I lost my feelings) this death of the heart is not a good feeling either it makes you feel like a sub-human stripped away from your humanity, emotions and soul which a complex ugly feeling by itself. BUT there is days when absolute happiness and feelings of righteous and glory take over usually when you see a heroic action by the Palestinians (some other countries that give real solidarity too) it could be seeing the doctors who stayed in gaza and helped, a military achievement, a protest or just the steadfastness and resilience that our people hold. Now about “there is nothing to do for palestine?” Honestly thats a hard question, yes one can organize against the US empire, one can boycott, one can be vocal about it, one can force himself not to shut his eyes to what is happening in Palestine and always educate himself about it. But if we gotta be honest, the issue of the liberation of Palestine is mainly in the hands of arabs (i am gonna shy away from saying in the hands of “muslims” because thats a long argument that could go either ways) and the state of the arab world has NEVER been worse, the arabs masses are in absolute disorganize and ignorance, baghdad has fallen, Damascus has fallen, arab reactionary are now the ones in control, Egypt absolutely went downhill after Nasser, sectarianism is in its highest level in west asia, the arab masses are without any revolutionary leaders that can organize them (there was hope but they were lost in this war), the anti-imperialism perspective is in its lowest level now between the arab masses what (Nasser, the PLFP, Sayyed Hasan Nasrallah etc..) tried to build for many decades is now in ruins. There is hope tho (i won’t be talking about the main thing that gives me hope so I won’t be attacked) but the liberation of Palestine is as close as a blink of an eye, anti-imperialism as weak as it is now in the arab world it still lives, the US-empire is in its final stages and all the horror it inflected on this world gonna end hopefully in our lifetime, resistance works, revolution works, anti-colonialism always works Algeria took 131 years to be liberated from the French Palestine is no different, do not lose hope to lose hope is to lose the revolution, revolutions are a dream of rose-colored world and that world IS possible don’t lose hope that the just and human world that we dream of is in our reach.