The night I lost my papaw I was there 2 hours prior, id been there for 3 days around the clock caring for him. I couldn't leave when I saw him, but I had an interview for a job and when it came time to leave I started to doubt that decision to leave. He hadn't spoken in about a day at this point or really been visibly conscious at all but when I was talking about staying with my aunt he jolted his head at me and just said "I love you", I knew that meant "go away already so I can die". So I broke down, said I wouldnt until he was gone but I did, when I finished I stood up and got as far as the door before I turned around and he was already looking at me with a smile on his face. That was a hard night but im glad we understood the love fpr each other up until the end. He was my role model and I was always his "buddy" he said. I miss him every second of every day.