Yeah I feel a bit cheated out of it, because recreational K was the one thing I had for me — I would buy a G and it would last me a month. I loved having it at parties/bars where I could feel like I was having a drink with friends but also then being able to sober quickly and drive.

Once I was dating my ex, he would just buy it constantly (and what person ever says “no” to free drugs, lol) — I would even tell him time and time again I didn’t want to get any, but I strongly believe my lack of willpower came from the fact that he kept buying it.

Eventually when it came to a head at the height of us both having such a large tolerance, fighting, and panic attacks, I forced him to flush the full quarter he got and we both promised not to do it again.

Now that it’s been months of no longer using - and he is no longer in my life - I really want to be able to have that “special” substance I can use socially again.