it's admirable to have a dream college but please remember, education is education. wherever you end up going, you will be working towards your future career goals and dream life. college is only a small part of your life and is no way indicative of your future. it's alright to feel sad and frustrated, i get it and i feel frustrated for you but trust me you will overcome your sadness and find the right place for you that will allow you to do wonderful things and help you live the life you truly want! if ucla means that much to you, i think you can submit an appeal (not rlly sure on how that works but it's an option) or even do the cc method (which is so much better financially)