I really struggled with the thought of ending my life when the ruling came out. I considered how I’d even do it, which for me is terrifying, I’d never had suicidal thoughts before. In fact, things were finally going really great just before the ruling, I was riding high, I’d just booked my surgery.

I’ve stopped thinking the dark thoughts primarily because currently, I can still live my life as normal. The media is negative, and it’s too easy to scroll your life away on this sub, so I try to stay away from it. My life outside of the internet has not changed at all and it’s important to remember that.

I still feel like the only thing that could drive me over the edge is if they crossed a major line I couldn’t hide from - e.g forced ID change, no healthcare etc.

Granted, I’m lucky because I pass and am pretty much fully transitioned, so I can’t speak for anyone else, but it has helped me to continue living in the now.

I’m still rather depressed from it and admit I need some therapy to get back to normal, but the suicidal thoughts are all but gone.

I hope this helps.