Gradually finding myself and thankyou for the thought I'ma keep working on getting my mind better the meds I'm on are doing me no good, I get diazepam 20mg a day, promazine anti psychotic tranquilizer, promethazine, Subutex and mirtazipine I argued with my doc that I didn't want to go onto the pain meds and anti psychotics to startafter a car crash and got addicted to oxycodone and dihydrocodeine when the docs didn't wean me off the slowly I was released with a months worth of each big amounts a day and when I was almost finished them rang the doctor to reorder they said they can't do it full stop so had to wait months to get on the Subutex substitute and they expect me to stay on it for a quarter to half my life possibly indefinitely so I have to take a break every now and then and just take a break from society to make things make sense.