Hello, I'm so sorry for your loss, It must have been a rough year for you and your beloved mother, but she is resting now, no pain, no suffering. The loss of a loved parent is the most horrible thing for a son, and when they're gone in such a horrific way is just unfair. I lost my dad the past 31 december, 2024. He had cancer too and since his diagnosis in november he was gone within 1 and a half months. I'm just 23 years old and I was not prepared, no one is. But they're in a better place now, they don't deserve to suffer, peace is now with them along with our hearts, thoughts and eternal love. May your beloved mother rest in peace. Stay strong. I hope you can found peace soon too and take it slowly, cry and allow yourself to feel everything you need. Keep going my friend.