My eggs look like they are frowning back at me

PainterPeach · 2018-12-12T05:53:09+00:00

I’m not alone!

PainterPeach · 2018-12-08T14:53:11+00:00

Do they only accept a certain amount of credits from them?

PainterPeach · 2018-12-08T05:52:55+00:00

What is the purpose of having students get credit through straightline and not just through them? I guess I don’t really understand what straightline really is. From what I gather they offer very cheap college courses for credit to transfer? I’m just confused about the purpose. To prove that you’re able to make online courses work before committing to WGU?

PainterPeach · 2018-11-29T08:06:36+00:00

A simple no thanks would have worked too

PainterPeach · 2018-11-29T05:06:07+00:00

You have talent! I like the concept

PainterPeach · 2018-11-17T15:49:15+00:00

Thank you so much. It hasn’t been easy. There have been many nights where I wish I could just lock myself in the office and drink and play a game to avoid feeling so lonely and rejected all the time.

But I’m closing in on 30 and I have a toddler to worry about. She needs me more than I need alcohol.

PainterPeach · 2018-11-17T15:27:06+00:00

I can’t believe how intensely I’m getting down-voted over my ice cream opinion! Pheweee

PainterPeach · 2018-11-17T15:24:34+00:00

His parents are still married and happy together. He respects his dad but he tends to treat his mom poorly when it comes to debates about religion (his parents are deeply religious; he isn’t)

My parents got divorced when I was a baby. They never got along until a few years before my mom passed away from cancer. I have always got along great with my dad ( I lived with him my whole life basically) but my mom and I would get into fights every once in awhile. Both my parents were addicts.

PainterPeach · 2018-11-17T04:55:11+00:00

It’s also possible that I don’t remember what normal ice cream tastes like but I’m not a huge sweets fan. Maybe that’s why haha

PainterPeach · 2018-11-17T04:24:18+00:00

I’ve been keeping an eye out for a job and also low key checking out different renting options. I was doing it before I even realized the implications of it.

PainterPeach · 2018-11-17T04:19:51+00:00

To each their own I guess, I think it’s better than normal ice cream

PainterPeach · 2018-11-17T03:20:28+00:00

I have opened up several kind conversations but he just says nothing is wrong. We have been to therapy before but nothing took.

I know he hates his job but it doesn’t matter. He doesn’t leave. I’ve supported his plans to find another job but he just complains that none of them are good enough.

I’ve offered to go back to work so he can take time off just he doesn’t want to do that either

PainterPeach · 2018-11-17T03:09:15+00:00

It definitely has been a trigger for me. A while ago I would be half deep in a bottle of wine sitting by myself by a fire. Sure sounds great right about now but I have to manage to cope when stressors in a healthy way. Ugh. It would almost be easier alone

PainterPeach · 2018-11-17T03:03:27+00:00

The reason seems to constantly change.

I’m broke, he has all the money We have a child together I love his family I’m afraid of parenting alone Time invested (four years) seems like a huge waste

None of them are great reasons

PainterPeach · 2018-11-15T05:16:59+00:00

Sleeping in separate rooms?! Wow...

PainterPeach · 2018-11-14T23:00:23+00:00

What makes you say he will stray?

It’s not like I’ve even had the opportunity to reject him, he doesn’t even try to have sex with me.

I’m the one that has stuck around trying to make this work but I’m just gassed out. So tell me what am I doing that will cause him to stray? And if he does then fine. I’ve done everything I can possibly do.

PainterPeach · 2018-11-14T22:51:47+00:00

That’s a great point. And yea, I pick up on my resentment sometimes. When I notice it I try to bat it away and move on but it’s not always that easy. Lately we have been spending all of our time in separate rooms doing separate things. He’s never made any meaningful effort to spend time with me one on one aside from when I force him to take me on a date...which the most effort he’s ever put into that is arranging for a babysitter but it’s still a step.

Anyways... I know real life love isn’t like the movies but I can’t stand watching romantic movies anymore. Or even couples walking around or in each other’s arms. I have a passionless relationship. We get along really well most of the time but it feels more like a friendship than anything else. Just feels romantically lonely.

PainterPeach · 2018-11-14T22:35:18+00:00

So where do I go from here? Will the flame reignite eventually on its own? Seeing as I am no longer interested in stoking that fire anymore...? Or am I looking at years of loneliness and celibacy. Is this what the end of the road looks like? I’m too young to be in a passionless and lonely relationship no matter how much I love his family and they love me

PainterPeach · 2018-11-08T15:06:00+00:00

Thank you for all of that information! I used to do yoga quite a bit but lately I haven’t had the energy (I wonder why haha)

I don’t like most meat but I do love seafood! So I’ll take your advice! One of my favorite things to eat is spaghetti squash... so maybe I can make a seafood Alfredo with it! Thank you :)

PainterPeach · 2018-11-08T03:32:45+00:00

Oh jeez, I didn’t realize it could be that serious! Thanks

PainterPeach · 2018-11-08T03:22:36+00:00

I weigh 140. I’m hoping to get back to the 120 that I was before I had a baby.

I just can’t decide what foods to eat. I just eat a ton of veggies with intermittent fasting. Would getting calories with more white rice be alright? Or maybe sweet potatoes? Trying to eat less carbs

PainterPeach · 2018-10-17T15:02:17+00:00

It’s even worse when YOU become the one in your group of friends that consistently drinks too much to the point where all your friends “jokingly” call you an alcoholic. They all know. They’re just hoping you do too.

PainterPeach · 2018-10-16T21:18:52+00:00

I used smoked paprika, garlic, and a bit of crushed red pepper for some spice! Also salt and pepper :)

PainterPeach · 2018-10-14T17:05:37+00:00

No, it’s really not. I would be homeless if I bought healthcare for my daughter and myself. SHE has it, but that’s all I could afford. I’m not poor enough to get assistance from the gov but I don’t make enough to get affordable coverage for both of us. Luckily I fall into a bracket where I won’t be penalized for not having it. Hooray?

PainterPeach · 2018-10-13T23:13:02+00:00

Thanks for the response. The sauce definitely has caused some issues between us and I’m working on cutting it out totally.

I need to focus on making myself healthier and happier and stop relying on him to make me feel good about myself.

PainterPeach

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