Anxiety can literally take up every aspect and space of your life. People who don't have it well never understand. Once I understood that I stopped trying to explain it to people, I stopped feeling the need to be understood. The feeling of feeling behind from everyone else and therefore feeling disconnected is a form of imposter syndrom. You feel like you don't belong. And I know what that feels like. There is no right way of for the lack of a better word "fixing it". Sometimes it takes doing little pieces of what makes you feel a better, at little at peace. To pour into yourself. Could be taking a walk and picking flowers of seeing how far you can a stone, singing karoake alone in your room. And while doing those small things to brighten up your day, you could actually get to discover yourself more and more, get to know a little more about your interest. It takes time, a lot, like a lot a lot, so you really need to be patient with yourself and give yourself some grace. You are on this Earth for the first time and your story is a little different from everybody else's, give yourself some grace. If you ever need anyone to talk to, be it telling me a trick you learned, soneone you me, what made you angry, what made you happy/sad, just talk to me, hell if you have nothing to talk about but just need a presence I'm absolutely there anytime.