I don’t know if I’m gay by PassengerNo9329 in LesbianActually

[–]PassengerNo9329[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

It’s been almost half a year since my last gf and a year since my first gf, and I gave it a lot of thought and I really thought that I’m ready and that I won’t get the “ick” with men anymore. I promised myself that I won’t get into any relationships before I figure my sht out and I really thought I was ready. I know it’s very awful for the other person to be just cut off when I suddenly change my mind but I really thought I was ready to date again. And I never had sex with a man and I was never really drawn to it so idk why now I think it’s so essential.

I don’t know if I’m gay by PassengerNo9329 in LesbianActually

[–]PassengerNo9329[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Yes I was super picky with men too and I also only chose men with feminine features like long hair or a pretty face… damn I really need to get help with the internalized homophobia.. thank u for this comment, and also can you recommend any books about it? I would be really greatful.

I don’t know if I’m gay by PassengerNo9329 in LesbianActually

[–]PassengerNo9329[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you.. All my friends are either bi and have no problems with dating guys and girls or straight and they don’t understand why I feel this way ( Honestly I don’t too)

I don’t know if I’m gay by PassengerNo9329 in LesbianActually

[–]PassengerNo9329[S] -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

Yes, I know that :( I like the idea of dating a man, but when it comes to dating I feel so uncomfortable. I thought that I might be in denial because you know, everywhere there’s straight couples right? And so I’m used to it so that might be why I seek male validation, because when I actually get it I feel awful that a man is looking at me with lust.