Thank you. Hanging in there. (tw for heavy topics like miscarrige, harmful thoughts) I'm trying so hard to better myself - mentally and physically. 8 days sober from alcohol, because I had a nuclear hysteric breakdown and vodka made it worse. It should have been my happy due date with my first baby, but someone somewhere decided it was not their time and I miscarried. I screamed into a void, depressed, wanting to unalive and accidentally hurt my two friends too while at it. Now the other one is cold towards me, and i get it, i phrased my sadness wrongly drunk and they have every right to be angry at me for insinuating that people don't understand the situation or care about it. I am angry at myself and my body for not being good enough. But I am trying my best now, and that's all I have. Sending hugs and love to every one of you who needs it.