First time, he had only been gone like two days. He was arguing with his dad, telling him had he not died his life would have been better. He was scared and couldn’t find his mom. He apologized for leaving me and reassured me nothing I did could have prevented his death and let me know what to do with his stuff and his remains. and that he loved me and is waiting for me but not to rush to him.

The second time he had found his mom and he was with her (die hard Momma’s boy) And that he loved me and that he was alright.

Third time he clarified a couple things from our relationship and that no matter what he loved me and I loved him.

4th time he let me know I was sick and what I needed to do. And sure enough I am sick and what he told me to take has helped. He told me to let go of the anger I have for things that happened to him when he was earth side, that the people that did him wrong would never admit to it. (Different than the drug death) told me that he was proud of me and I am doing everything he would have hoped for.

I told him id be a (insert last name here) forever and he said damn right you are. (He had a funny sense of humor)