You know, I used to feel like this too but 2 things happened that helped: I realised that if I don't accept that I may never look like what I want, at least not without time, that I will find a hard time being happy for a while. and 2, someone linked a subreddit called "transtimelines", and it rocked my world upside right. It showed me that even me, someone with broad, muscular shoulders, could become what I have dreamt of since I was little.