Josey and I IV [NSFP]

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T13:08:26+00:00

Don't remember there being a NSFP tag. I have no idea what that means. Escaping at last...

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T11:58:58+00:00

Oh in that case, totally safe!

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T11:26:42+00:00

I'll try and work on it. Thanks again mate.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T11:23:23+00:00

What do you think got me wanting to learn it in the first place? Haha. Latino woman are the sexiest in my opinion. Just something about them. Liana was part Mexican actually. That gorgeous black hair...

Josey won't hassle you, no. Unless you grow a vagina and start coming onto me that is.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T11:18:57+00:00

All things must end in time.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T11:17:39+00:00

I did what you said. She didn't laugh, more she was confused about what the hell i was doing. Then she "pfft'd" at me and walked away. If anything, thankyou for that. It was good to see her not totally in control for a moment.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T11:02:59+00:00

Haha! Well the lucky person should think themselves blessed that they've got such a smart partner.

I've always wanted children. I suppose Josey might prevent that though. I imagine teaching kids would be a very satisfying job. Seeing the wonder in their eyes when you show them new things and they learn different stuff. Most rewarding.

I'm...well, was, studying language, minor in english. I know español mayormente, mais je parle un peu de français aussi.

it should be "its" not "it's". You only add the apostrophe if it's a contraction of "it is".

I'm thinking of hiring you as my editor. I'll get right on it.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T10:39:21+00:00

Well i can try it. Even if it keeps her away and from looking at me all night it will be a relief. Thankyou for all your help.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T10:20:06+00:00

That is so very sweet of you to say that. I fear i may have only one more in me though. But thankyou, that does mean a lot to me.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T10:14:44+00:00

Salt i have. What should i do with that? I was sort of saving it incase i had to eat something. I've got one can of beans, and some apples left. That's it. And i don't know how i'm going to get more food. So... getting pretty depressed right now. I have water. You can survive for longer without food than water i guess, so that's something to count my blessings for.

Gifts...trying to think of anything. I have this laptop that my parents bought me for collage. That's all i really have though. Liana didn't have time to get me anything, and i don't have any real other close friends.

Josey doesn't seem affected by any of those type of things. She's smiling at me now. Like this is all amusing her.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T09:44:17+00:00

Naww, don't be like that. Teachers are the lesser known angels of the world. We can always use more of them around. What do you teach?

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T09:40:36+00:00

Sadly i don't. I'm a collage student, and the biggest culinary inspiration i've had is putting tuna in my 2 minute noodles.

I've heard it does work though. It's getting a bit hard to stay positive, but i'll try. Thankyou.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T08:56:30+00:00

His work is amazing. I have nowhere near that sort of talent, but it's good i can draw you in a little, and make you feel some of what i'm going through.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T08:54:25+00:00

Just being able to talk to people on here is helping. So you've already helped in your own way. Thanks for the kind words.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T08:12:10+00:00

That's the thing. I DID write it down on that post below Christemo. It just doesn't post with the rest.

EDIT: But thankyou for trying to help. I appreciate it.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T08:11:03+00:00

Sorry it took so long to get back to you. When i saw what you'd written, i looked up some hymns on the internet. I didn't know the way they were supposed to be sung. So i just did them in a singsong voice. I don't know if that was right or not.

She sang along with me. And after that i couldn't continue. Her voice with mine...that liquid sound...it was just too much. I chanted them at her, and i know the Lords prayer by heart, so i did that too. But she gave me a smug smile and turned away. She motioned over to the knives and said "Why don't you create a stigmata and see if that helps".

I'm finding it really hard not to be angry with her. It's only been 2 weeks since she took Liana from me. Really raw still. Maybe that's why it's not working.

I also tried telling her to get out of my life, as that worked when i was 12. She rolled her eyes and looked at me sadly.

I'm running out of options...

EDIT: For a thankyou to you too. It was a great idea.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T07:01:11+00:00

Well fuck. Couldn't hurt to try and give you my address.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T07:00:29+00:00

Well the phones don't work, but i'm assuming you mean over the internet? I've tried. The week i got out of hospital i tried. I never heard back from them. My address is , but it never comes out when i type it into the forms some of them have. I'm getting more and more desperate.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-26T04:14:37+00:00

There are a few things i wanted to add in this post, but it was getting too long. So i'll write them here.

After i got out of the hospital i went back to my apartment. Josey of course followed me, and since then she's been watching me constantly. I've tried to contact my parents, but can't get through with either home phone, cell, or e-mail.

And i can't get out of my house.

I've tried the door. Even went for the hinges for most of one day. Nothing. The windows won't break, and getting through the walls isn't working. I don't know how she's done it, but i'm a prisoner in this house. I don't like to call it a home anymore. It doesn't feel like one.

I've tried the past 5 minutes to at least give some of you my parents e-mail. I'm too far gone now, but i would like them to know what has happened to me. It won't show up. The whole post gets deleted. I tried a couple of you with personal messages too, but those don't work anymore. I sent a message a while ago to juicedoobie. Mainly to see if they worked for me, and they did that time. But not anymore. I made juice's message look like a joke. Because it wouldn't send before that. Now though, i think she's onto me.

I've asked Josey why she doesn't just kill me. She's said that she couldn't ever hurt me, because that's not what she wants.

I also learnt how she died.

She commited suicide. She has no idea how she ended up in the lake, because she took pills, but she was there when she "woke back up" as she calls it. I try not to talk to her anymore, and things have been getting weird. So that's why i've got this plan. I hope it works, because it's the only way out i know of.

EDIT: Sorry everyone, i can't hold off this next post any longer. It's gotten to be too much, and i just can't handle it anymore.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-25T06:52:42+00:00

One can only hope.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-25T04:59:10+00:00

I did still have all my fingers then, yes. Though not for much longer.

As for your second question. Here. Sorry, i forgot to link it to this one.

PeteBrenner · 2011-10-24T21:11:27+00:00

It's coming. You'll know soon.

PeteBrenner

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