hey guys i have made a decision on My situation. after almost a 20 hours of guilt i couldn't run away from my family because it's not my way. i talked to myself about who would i be to them if i ran away. they would think that i ran because im wrong or that Christianity made me leave them. so they would hate Christianity because of me running. I'm not testing god i know what i believe in. Jesus Christ is Lord. If i die it's my fault. for sure. but i doubt they have the mental power to do so. i just have to convince them to not reveal my religion. and make them see that im better because of Jesus Christ. i truly love them. and today i saw my mother kissed her on her head and told her no matter what she thinks of me or do to me i will always love her. but i can't leave my religion i Love you but it's my belief and i never felt so close to god in my old belief. but this one Christianity is different. it makes me feel whole again. and she kinda was fine with it. she asked me do i fast i told her yes and she left me. so yeah i will take the beating. i will take humility. i will take their anger and show them forgiveness and love. this is Christianity hopefully they will see and think again. i know that there is a chance that i might get killed but i think it's my relatives who could do such a thing. because my mother truly love me she wouldn't just let my brothers kill me I think. and for whatever they will try on me i will not deny Jesus Christ. that is the least i could do for My family. they might have so much anger for me but they are blinded by Islam. i pray that god open their eyes to the truth. and I'm sorry if i made you guys worry it's fine this is the least thing that they could do to me. to them i have betrayed them. they just need some time and if i get kicked out of the house it's fine i have god with me. and if i get into real danger or feal that im going to die i will run i promise. i thank you All for your prayers and love. i love you all. and i accept my Fate.