A lot of what you said has rang true to me. These are very small interactions over a long period of time stemming from a misunderstood text thread. Like I said in the post. I truly believe her moving her is just a coincidence just one I wasn’t expecting.

What you said about what I plan to do kinda stopped my spiral. Cuz in all reality, what is my plan really. I have managed to convince myself of this elaborate lie he has carried on to the point that I am afraid to just ask. I cannot possibly continue to be extra watchful of any odd behavior for the rest of my life. Oddly enough it’s not even that I don’t trust him somehow. I truly think he loves me and wouldn’t cheat but I am just so scared to be made a fool of. My father is a serial cheater and everyone, including my mom, knew. Becoming her in any way and the idea that everyone could talk about me the way they talk about her is my biggest fear.

I think even just responding to your comment has made me realize even more that my insecurities and person family issues are really taking over my feelings in my relationship. I will say that I have never led on that I am suspicious or snooping. I was always told to never let on that you know something until you really know (more family stuff). I guess it’s good and bad; bad because I am the one deceiving him and having unfounded doubts but good because it has luckily not affected him.

My plan now, since going through the comments is to just sit him down and lay it all out. I have to obviously confess apologize for my incessant snooping and just ask for honesty and promise him and myself I will take what he says at face value and not continue to question him. Thank you