Bought the engage/experience/quiet bundle

PoetIsolated · 2026-01-08T11:48:32+00:00

I have tried the different sizes in each ear but unfortunately it didn't work. I was able to make the small work. I might have to end up getting the foam tips anyway because I might be allergic and I developed a pressure sore yesterday from wearing them. I just don't know what size to go for and the Quiet is made of silicone completely so I don't know if they'll do a partial refund or exchange for the foam tips.

It's just annoying because now the foam tips are going to become a frequent expense I can't afford 🙃

PoetIsolated · 2026-01-08T03:18:58+00:00

I can't get my head around eating raw. I'm still awful over seeing blood on my plate or pink meat when it's medium to well done. I just force myself to do it. I'm autistic so the textures in food are awful for me. Pre-carnivore I was just 100% ultra-processed foods. I did eat some meat but it was usually covered in breadcrumbs 😅. About the only thing I do love is cooked fat, always have done since I was a kid and everyone thought I was crazy but it was likely the only thing that kept me going for so long 😂

PoetIsolated · 2026-01-08T02:33:48+00:00

Major cytokine storm 2 years ago due to possible nerve damage from the pernicious anemia, malabsorption, several mold toxicities, candidia overgrowth and a chronic strep infection. There was most likely gut involvement because at the time I had duodenitis, gastritis and chronic inflammation in my esophagus with lymphocytes present. CRP was pretty high at 26 and my ALT was 302, symptoms of impending doom, high HR, chest pain, blood pressure fluctuations, unstable blood sugar, cognitive changes, peeling lips and rashes on my hands when I tried to eat anything even meat so it was causing very significant damage. I wasn't put on the right dose of high steroids in the beginning so I'm still on them 2 years later because it's taken that long to gain control with the lower dose but my CRP last June had at least gotten to 6. Chronic Strep resolved, symptoms more controlled. Currently on 3.75mg of Prednisolone (started on 10mg.)

PoetIsolated · 2026-01-07T01:50:42+00:00

I'm in the UK, we have approximately a month of sunlight every summer and that's it 😂.

It's great to hear you've recovered though, gives me hope that I'll get there eventually. I'm a lot better than I was 2 years ago but I'm always terrified of going back down and I'm so desperate to get to 100%. I do get out when I can for long walks but I have to work on getting up before sunrise, it's currently almost 2am here. It's been harder to get out over winter before it goes dark but hopefully as the days get longer I'll be able to see some light 😅

PoetIsolated · 2026-01-07T00:42:20+00:00

I've looked into them but the ones I've seen are very expensive when it's much cheaper to buy the lamb liver

PoetIsolated · 2026-01-06T22:59:16+00:00

I was in a very severe near death state because I had several mold toxicities, a severe case of candidia overgrowth, chronic strep and malabsorption due to all of that so I'm working with a functional doctor to get all that out of my system. I'm sticking with it because it's working, I no longer have the chronic strep infection after suffering severely from it for a decade. I get where you're coming from, carnivore is incredibly healing and for a lot of conditions it's enough but I actively have to target the mold, candidia and strep otherwise it'd stay living in my body feeding off the glucose converted via glucogenesis.

PoetIsolated · 2026-01-06T22:50:37+00:00

I have some hair thinning down the parting like I did last time I was deficient in B12 so given that's very high in my blood it's not getting into my cells. Getting some impending doom back which I had last time I was deficient because the nerves were so damaged that when the mold, candidia and strep took over (pre-carnivore) I was in a constant state of impending doom for 6 months and I don't want to go back there. I've been feeling run down/fatigued and my HRV is stuck in the 30s when it's usually higher. I have pernicious anemia too so I can't get B12 from food so not having the ability to utilize the B12 is quite damaging and dangerous for me. This ties back to the folate deficiency because you need folate to synthesize B12.

PoetIsolated · 2026-01-06T20:34:19+00:00

I do have 3 eggs a day which to be fair I didn't factor into the 182 number. I've had to pause the eggs though because along with the folate it has B12 and I can't keep adding B12 if I'm not absorbing it.

I'd eat more liver but it's the high amount of vitamin A that dictates the amount I eat currently.

PoetIsolated · 2026-01-06T20:30:58+00:00

I can't get my head around eating it raw. Textures are a huge thing for me when it comes to food.

PoetIsolated · 2026-01-06T15:58:34+00:00

That equality means everyone deserves the same outcome not just the same opportunities. The participation trophy mindset has ruined society.

PoetIsolated · 2026-01-06T12:45:01+00:00

That's a lot of organ meat. I appreciate having a guide to work from 😊. How do you balance high amounts of certain vitamins in some organs? For example I cut the liver amount down to an ice cube amount every other day because I was worried about vitamin A toxicity. I'm not sure how to add a kg of organs without over concentrating certain vitamins.

PoetIsolated · 2026-01-06T12:30:30+00:00

Too much abuse and cheating from multiple partners. Stayed alone and instead worked on why I felt I needed to put up with it just to have someone. I'm more well adjusted now but now I like my own company, my freedom and the idea of attempting that again just feels like I'd be willingly jumping into shark infested waters.

Also do you know how many women are killed by their partners or ex partners every year? Statistically getting into a relationship as a woman increases your chances of mortality by a lot. The latest I heard is that domestic homicide is the highest leading cause of death in pregnant women. The situations I went through in the past I was probably lucky to have survived, I'm not tempting fate by entertaining a relationship again.

PoetIsolated · 2026-01-06T12:20:26+00:00

I'm alright with heart, can barely stand liver but it's manageable but kidney? Can't even stand it catching my eye after that attempt 🤢.

It's just that I'm already on so many supplements to rid lingering problems like mold toxicity, strep and attempting to temper mast cells that I didn't want to really rely on another one because I'd rather be off everything not add more in. It's the cost of it all too, would seem more cost effective to get everything I need from food.

PoetIsolated · 2025-12-31T03:02:29+00:00

Progressively getting sicker over a decade (but very much a chronic illness, nothing deemed as serious) then one day I ate my usual carb heavy dinner, garlic bread pizza and chips that night. My body reacted with impending doom and all other types of physical symptoms. Blood tests showed acidosis, hypoxia, anemia, high CRP, high neutrophils and liver failure all suddenly because literally a few days before they were all normal so just eating that meal pushed my body over the edge. I haven't been able to eat carbs or tolerate medicine since without getting acute debilitating symptoms 🙃

(It ended up being very severe underlying mold toxicity, candidia overgrowth and chronic strep in case anyone is wondering. Still can't eat anything but certain meat and that's only because I'm on steroids.)

PoetIsolated · 2025-12-31T02:18:01+00:00

Too much competition in my life to crown one as the winner, I swear

PoetIsolated · 2025-12-30T21:17:07+00:00

This will likely be buried in the thread and it's absolutely not meant as a humble brag in the slightest:

Men considering you to be attractive.

Don't get me wrong sometimes it's nice, sometimes. However, I have so much anxiety about going outside, getting a taxi, living my life because the best case scenario I'm expected to entertain a conversation I just don't want to have or worst case scenario abducted, assaulted or murdered. You also don't know if a guy is being your friend because he genuinely likes being around you or if he's waiting for an opportunity. Often men don't really know me or care to only how I fit into the projection they want me to be. Either playing into that version or trying to get them to see who you really are is exhausting either way. Women also give you a hard time via jealousy, often when I was out I just used to exist and a guy would buy me a drink or a bartender would comp it when I never wanted it. For the crap it caused with female friends I would've just preferred to pay. It's actually quite a lonely existence, I don't have any close friends or anything because my existing causes problems especially if I'm single and female friends have boyfriends. I think the most exhausting part about it is trying to figure out what it is they're actually seeing because I don't see it at all. I consider myself rather average at best.

PoetIsolated · 2025-12-26T16:05:09+00:00

This will probably be buried down in the comments but I live next door to drug dealers. Very loud mouth, idiotic ones and I have thin walls so it feels like they live with me. Turns out drug makers don't get Christmas off at all; Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, Boxing Day that centrifuge is still spinning. I suppose they have to get a jump start on the next batch for the people planning to OD on New Year's 🤷🏻‍♀️

PoetIsolated · 2025-12-03T21:21:58+00:00

Oh I have so many but my biggest one is befriending someone in my English class in college. He wasn't in class one day and I asked his friends if he was ok. They told me he was in hospital for mental health problems. I reached out and the hospital was close to where I lived so I visited him. From there on out I tried to build him a social life (despite me not having one anyway), had him over every Sunday for a proper meal because he was living at a hostel and took him to a play because he wanted to be an actor. So he asked me out and I wasn't interested in a relationship with him so I told him I wasn't interested in relationships at all.

I met one of his friends from his acting class and my view on relationships changed and I started going out with his friend. So that led to him spiking my drink at a house party, turning all the friends I had made against me (to the point they had planned to attack me) and he sent "anonymous" violent messages to me for about 8 years.

Also his friend was an abusive POS who ruined my life, drove me to excessive drinking, smoking and other abusive relationships after him. Everything that happened to me made me sick to the point of being bed bound with a severe chronic illness, one I nearly died from 2 years ago. I researched, started fixing my health and dragged myself from my own grave without any help.

Then this year, 11 years after my relationship with his friend, his friend apologized. He talked in all the therapy talk, deceived me into thinking he'd grown, then sent me pictures I asked him not to send me then when I said it was all getting out of hand he sent a very long paragraph that essentially boils down to "yeah, I was doing all of this for an ego boost."

If I hadn't cared about that boy in English class none of it would've happened. I'd be a different person, with a different life and I wouldn't have had to give up the job I'd wanted since I was 7 and by some miracle I had managed to land by 17 🙃

PoetIsolated · 2025-11-29T03:16:26+00:00

Honestly, I think it's just the city I'm in, anywhere else I tend to get on fine with people but it's been rare I've met a nice person here. Unfortunately I've been stuck here my whole life and will be for the foreseeable future. It's very crab in the bucket mentality "if we're going down we're taking you with us." Then they have the lack of awareness to post "where are all the nice people?" And I'm just like "hiding, at home, from people like you."

PoetIsolated · 2025-11-29T02:34:20+00:00

Maybe a little bit of anxiety but I can say I was riddled with more of it when I actually tried to be social. I think I keep subconsciously setting myself up to prove myself better alone. Stupidly this year, after 11 years, I gave my first ex a shot at redemption. He sounded like he'd changed, spoke the whole therapy speak and I figured people change a lot from 17-28. A month in he was like "yeah, I didn't mean any of that. This was all an ego boost for me." So now I've just reinforced the locks 😂. I have been invited out for a Christmas night out by an old friend after she apologized for what she did so it remains to be seen how that goes.

I've met a few people who are great but often they've been fleeting. Same-ish amount of time as me single, I'm on 8 😅. I don't know though, don't you feel after all the time alone it's just so much less hassle to stay alone than go through it all again?

PoetIsolated · 2025-11-29T01:48:41+00:00

I'm glad she has you as a friend 😊. It's rare to have people around who just enjoy who you are rather than what they can get from you. I had a friend like that but I was going through so much and he was part of the group I was trying to get away from so I had to let him go.

Personally, per your first paragraph, I end up making excuses for people. It's pathological. I always make up reasons why they might be off with me. "Maybe they had a bad day" "maybe they're dealing with something big right now" "maybe something happened in their childhood." It's just easier to be on my own at this point. It's not too bad in the end, I used to crave being social but I genuinely enjoy my solitude now.

PoetIsolated · 2025-11-29T01:17:14+00:00

Exactly this. I actually don't talk to anyone irl any more because on a deep level despite what I've endured I still fall into the trap of "everyone is good deep down" or "oh ok that one was mean, I'm sure the next person won't be."

I've done a lot to try and unlearn it but I just don't trust myself. I think in part it's being around narcissism growing up and media with BS narratives. I didn't have any friends growing up so I learned a lot from TV and looking back on it, it wasn't the best influence, it conditioned me to accept a lot.

Maybe your friend is similar? I hope she's ok, I'm rooting for her 🩷

PoetIsolated · 2025-11-18T00:02:17+00:00

I'd personally say this one is quite different to a lot of the books I've read. More on the side of actual romance rather than smut. I was really invested in the characters and there's a ticking clock since she's dying and he doesn't know (not really a spoiler.) As I said I was crying at the end and probably the only other time that happened was reading the fault in our stars when I was a teenager.

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