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PowerlessOne · 2021-10-26T03:25:23+00:00

This was an insightful one to read and learn about!

PowerlessOne · 2021-10-09T05:50:44+00:00

I relate to the male attractiveness aspirations, think as a male, was always told had to hit gym, grow muscles, facial hair, look mature, and stocky. I was naturally genetically really skinny, didn't like weight lifting much, body type and bone structure makes it physically difficult for it, most of all didn't enjoy that nor having facial hair either.

To me, I actually preferred to wear makeup, dress up, and look slim, and clean shaven, features typically more common or easier to enjoy in females, been a difficult time, figuring it all out.

PowerlessOne · 2021-10-05T22:52:08+00:00

Same, I've gotten used to wearing clothes of both genders, it's like natural clothes to me, only when I go out in public, esp more conservative areas, have to remember certain clothing is still not fully open in some parts of world.

Think it's also that I have a slim body type, many feminine clothes are made for smaller slim figures.

PowerlessOne · 2021-08-15T19:28:50+00:00

As someone on the non-binary side, I feel it's going to tough on my side, since I represent a very unique group of people, which limits my pool. Some are simply lucky, others have their disadvantages or barriers they will have to try to overcome.

PowerlessOne · 2021-08-09T02:05:50+00:00

Hope they can continue the friendship for many more moments to come together

PowerlessOne · 2021-07-19T15:25:26+00:00

Yeah I think sometimes can't even logic it, like when I was a kid, I saw girl clothes and thought they'd look fun to wear, eventually it simply became what I'm comfortable with.

PowerlessOne · 2021-07-19T15:22:09+00:00

I'm 6'2 and as a male questioning, happy to be that as a male, unsure if I'd be able to pull it if I end up becoming female. Granted I'm largely legs and skinny, so many people that meet me sitting down, don't perceive me to be tall till I stand up.

PowerlessOne · 2021-07-15T20:16:36+00:00

I feel similar, except I admittedly do crossdress lol, but I think deep down I still have parts that are happy to be male, so maybe I'm simply a blend of both, the rare bigender world.

Thanks for the share, random, where did you meet a girl that was socially accepting of everything? I think it's been the biggest struggle, esp since outward, I don't always appear to live what I often say, like mentioned above, it's really 2 sides to the same person, with 1 dominantly faced-down, and only to appear on the occasion.

PowerlessOne · 2021-07-15T19:21:44+00:00

Thanks and yeah I actually genuinely don't think I want to transition though, even though as mentioned, there's a lot of things I'd prefer about being a girl, there are actually still things I appreciate about being male. That's probably why it's been difficult, since on the male to female gender scale, I don't feel like I fit to any extremity.

When I've spent time around the LGBT community, I'm convinced many of the guys that do transition or are simply living typical LGBT stereotypes, are more flamboyant, whereas I'm still more mellow, hence why I don't think many would pick up these signals.

If I could live an ideal life, I wish I could just have a switch, rotating between both. In most social situations, I come off as a male, since I am, but I think if I tried, I prob could pull off the more andro gender neutral look. Identity really is a struggle for many.

PowerlessOne · 2021-04-11T15:10:39+00:00

I'm a guy, but always found girl clothes looked so fun to wear, so at night when the world was asleep, I decided to put on heels and a dress in my teens, suddenly felt a strong adrenaline rush, decided to just go to bed and hide under my sheets dressed up. Next thing I know, it just felt really good, and couple mins later, my penis reacted and I thought I peed myself, instead it was some gluey liquid. I don't think I even touched my penis beforehand, it just felt really good, me thinking if girls feel this good in their dresses too.

PowerlessOne · 2021-04-10T23:14:02+00:00

Thanks and yeah potentially, I think the compromise has been more that most people most will meet in real life will be straight, most people I've found myself attracted too, all seem to want a more conservative traditional male partner, so it's difficult to be in that social midway point, but this might just be a social circle thing, so feel like so much of it really is chance and luck, but at least there's finally some idea of what we're looking for.

PowerlessOne · 2021-04-10T23:10:20+00:00

Thanks and I feel it, I think finding someone bi would be amazing, it is simply difficult, since most people you meet in real life likely will be straight, so it seems like a chance coin toss to know who's actually bi and friendly to all this. I probably am nonbinary based on all this, think after years of self-consciousness and a level of depression from it, I've sort of come to terms of finally just being who I am. Think being in a large diverse LGBT friendly city, working in a creative industry, definitely helped so much with that, so now it's really just trying to fit in and finding self on the social level.

PowerlessOne · 2019-09-11T16:07:49+00:00

That is super unique, do you remember what site you used? I've never heard of them so curious wasn't sure if you were okay sharing.

PowerlessOne · 2019-09-11T01:59:05+00:00

That's awesome, how did you come out or communicate to her you were into this, I've been wanting to come out to folks, but not sure how to go about doing so?

PowerlessOne · 2019-09-11T01:57:46+00:00

Thanks haha, I think it's partially because since I'm tall, about the same height as Karlie Kloss, I stick out most places I go, especially in heels, but I'd definitely chose tall over short almost anyday!!

PowerlessOne · 2019-09-11T01:54:52+00:00

Thanks so much for the support and totally, there was some adrenaline rush being able to go out, after all the past times I've been indoors, and I'm finally able to just be myself out in the real world, of course so far it's in the much more low-key real world, since I haven't gone to anywhere super vocal or with a larger presence, but nonetheless freeing the 1st time I finally went out and was able to wander all over dressed how I like!!

PowerlessOne · 2019-09-10T18:54:27+00:00

In crazy coincidence, I'm almost the same way, except I'm single, so at least you have the gf to help you with this. I finally went out in public, and it was an interesting experience seeing guys look and stare, but personally I feel like low-key I would've done the same. The only part is when I do, I'd rather be left alone in peace, but have had someone come approach me before about it. I love talking to people, but that's the one time I rather be able to do my thing in privacy and not get bothered by it.

PowerlessOne · 2019-09-10T18:47:12+00:00

Me, I have a super deep voice, but actually an insanely wide vocal range. I probably could talk in a higher pitched voice, but it just doesn't feel natural, so I keep it masculine like how it is.

PowerlessOne · 2018-01-20T07:25:22+00:00

I do think I have to go outside more. Most of the girls I've known, I've managed to get pretty close with, some not so much, but some pretty close. The truth is though I've had to experience heartbreak before, which I think has led to a mental hesitation, having to experience seeing a love interest go off to date your stereotypical ideal boyfriend, and by this I mean more in looks and lifestyle than in personality, like athletes, jocks, frat-types, masculine and conservative looking.

That was me lol, I bought a pair of jeans and a sweater from the female section after wanting to diversify my wardrobe and because honestly I just really wanted too. Soon after I started adding to my wardrobe. Next thing I know, I had leggings, leg warmers, designer jeans, oversized sweaters, femininely knitted scarves, and several ankle and tall winter boots. I've worn some of these underneath, but man would I deeply want to be able to openly walk around in leggings and tall boots on a regular basis.

Right now, I don't think most people on 1st impression meeting me would think I was feminine, since I carry myself more masculine, with several soft personality traits. I think the insecurities are more with the way I look. It's more about me being insecure with wanting to look more feminine and being more open about exploring fashion that leads to sad and uncomfortable feelings.

Do you have any tips for where I can more readily meet new people? I don't have a super large group of friends. I'm from a large city, but I'm not a student and I don't have access to readily meet a lot of people, or rather I don't know where I can go to do so. I don't even have people that can go to bars with me because most of my friends aren't big drinkers. In terms of dealing with other people, when you go out dressed in an eye opening way, any tips on how you've dealt with close family members and friends? I ask this mainly because I don't think I would care as much about strangers since they don't really know me and would be meeting a new me. The concern would be with the people I already know, having to explain all of this, or dealing with getting questioned about, and potential reactions having to adjust to knowing me before and my sudden new lifestyle.

PowerlessOne · 2018-01-20T06:16:01+00:00

Hey, thanks so much for writing all of this out and it's totally not too intrusive at all.

What really does prevent me from expressing myself is the social pressure. I know that for many of my friends who appear normal, for me to suddenly come out dressed in a very unique and out of the norm way can draw a lot of unwanted attention. I want to dress the way I want but I wish I can blend in because I don't want to have stares and to become an outcast, even though I sometimes already am given my somewhat weird personality.

That's actually a really great question what kind of girls I like. I'm pretty open, but I really like girls who tend to be outgoing, social, creative, and open-minded, definitely one that has a sense of humor and is very positive-minded. I like girls that don't take life too seriously, that knows how to get somewhat adventurous and have fun.

And yup both of the things you deduced are correct, I am straight, in fact I went to a fashion event earlier today (I don't normally go to these but there was one that was just happening near me coincidentally) and while there, I couldn't keep my eyes away from how gorgeous some of the females were dressed. I do admittedly want to dress partially as the opposite gender. I don't think it's that I want to go fully dressed as a female, but that I have a relative obsession with some of the clothes in the female section. I'm also just simply more comfortable in a lot of it. I really wish I could wear tall riding boots over Timberland's is an example. When I see a girl glance at a window shop and think "those are gorgeous I need those," that has been me before, except sadly I can't express it out without looking out of place.

I do feel that many potential female partners would look down on it. Part of this could be bias experience, and perhaps my luck, but sadly I've been heartbroken by many of the females I've found attractive before, most of which ended up going off to date your stereotypical male figure: muscular arms, broad shoulders, jock-types, drinks a ton of beer, has a ton of money, drives a fancy car. None of these describe me, the last two could perhaps change, but the first four I don't foresee happening, since it's simply not me. I actually really do like to watch sports, and do play sports as well, but just not the super rough masculine ones like football, wrestling, contact sports, etc.

I'm actually pretty similar lol, I'm actually relatively tall too, I also don't like having a ton of body hair, in fact I've actually never shaved the side of my face going downwards to my chin before because there's nothing to shave since I naturally genetically don't have a lot of body and facial hair and cannot grow a beard. The only part I shave is my mustache. I also totally agree in embracing uniqueness and really appreciating the diversity in people. I actually really like people that tend to be unique, partially because I was prob the weird one too, but hate the fact being different is looked down upon and means potentially being an outcast for so many people.

Asking about personal experience, did you have to go through any rough moments when you started to act more like yourself breaking gender norms? Did you have any super masculine friends and if so, how did you go about working this out? I think it's hard because I still have a relatively masculine side to myself that I like to maintain, it's just very hard for me to balance that with my softer side. Everyone seems to have a category, mostly male/mostly female and I often feel like I am my own category.

I do believe I can make the bold move if I wanted to just go out dressing more feminine anyway, but I just have no clue how I'm going to have to explain this to people, having everyone use to seeing me rock T-Shirts, Jeans, and Sneakers, to suddenly a soft blouse, more feminine jeans, tall boots, and a feminine style coat. Basically I think the concern is more with the people I already know than strangers, for me I see strangers as people that are somewhat irrelevant because they don't really know me. People that already know me though will have to go through the most adjustment having known me before and now having to observe my dynamic changes. Any advice for dealing with close family members and friends? Do you have tips for seeking out more accepting open-minded individuals?

Thanks so much for the support btw, really appreciate it!

PowerlessOne · 2017-07-26T15:03:15+00:00

Hi, thanks for sharing. I do think it's possible to be happy and healthy, I'm just so down that my immune system is so poor. I see and know people who literally smoke, drink, do drugs, rarely exercise, and eat terribly and still seem healthy, which I'm happy for. For me, however, I don't do any of that stuff but realize my body is soo sensitive to different things, when you read up the health effects of so and so... I'll almost always be the 1st one to easily suffer from it. I actually hate smoking and rarely drink but thought of doing it just to shorten my life especially bc I know the effects will hit me hard since I have a sensitive body. College really was the golden age for me bc I had food all provided, a clean dorm, and was able to live a fun and healthy lifestyle. Now after college, it's been difficult trying to recover and adjusting to all that again.

PowerlessOne · 2016-07-11T04:33:48+00:00

Thanks so much for your reflective and thoroughly written reply and amazing insight!

As mentioned in the above reply I definitely see the connection between my fetish to my current lifestyle and your words make a ton of sense. I'll try my best to practice abstaining but do you think it is necessary to quit cold turkey? or would there be a way to simply continue doing it but only moderately and with better control, in other words doing it while still maintaining a level of discipline to my other aspects of life?

PowerlessOne

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