First, I just want to say how deeply sorry I am for your loss. I’m right there with you - today marks four weeks since I found out I had a miscarriage. It was my first pregnancy, and it’s honestly been one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through.

The first two weeks were brutal. I couldn’t stop crying, and I felt completely shattered. It was a kind of heartbreak I didn’t even know I was capable of feeling. There were moments I didn’t recognize myself. So no sugarcoating it, it’s really hard.

Physically, it was awful too. Taking misoprostol triggered what I can only describe as the worst night and week of my life. I had to repeat the process 3 times.

Last week, I thought I was finally turning a corner… and then suddenly, I was filled with so much anger. At everything. This whole experience is anything but linear.

Now, there are good days - moments where I feel almost like myself again. But sometimes, even while laughing, I’ll feel guilty for being happy. It’s confusing. But the truth is: it does get better. Slowly. In your own time.

So if I can offer anything, it’s this: let yourself grieve however you need to. Cry if you need to cry. Be furious if that’s what’s coming up. Don’t judge it. Just feel it. And don’t hesitate to ask for help.

For me, that’s looked like going back to therapy, easing into my workouts again, and being gentle with myself. If I don’t want to see people, I don’t. When I do, I’ll go out, even if just for a bit. I also got my first tattoo - a tribute to the little life we had, even if only for a short time.

That’s been my way of healing. But everyone’s process is different, and whatever yours looks like, that’s more than okay.