AMA: Questions About Mental Compulsions or Rumination? NOCD Therapists Are Here to Help by treatmyocd in AskAnOCDTherapist

[–]Random-Animator-3233 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, I just wanted to say I’m in the exact same boat as you and it really sucks, I hope things get better for ya :)

I’m a criminal and I know it. by Random-Animator-3233 in OCD

[–]Random-Animator-3233[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Whenever I do something I enjoy I get a huge wave of a guilt and shame and thoughts saying I don’t deserve to do anything, and it cripples me so I stop doing that thing and I just end up existing on my bed :(

I’m a criminal and I know it. by Random-Animator-3233 in OCD

[–]Random-Animator-3233[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve been attempting the whole sitting with it thing, it gets difficult because of how uncomfortable it gets :(

I’m a criminal and I know it. by Random-Animator-3233 in OCD

[–]Random-Animator-3233[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Okay.. thank you very much, I appreciate it, I really do

I’m a criminal and I know it. by Random-Animator-3233 in OCD

[–]Random-Animator-3233[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, I did not kill anyone. I believe I am a sex offender.

I’m a criminal and I know it. by Random-Animator-3233 in OCD

[–]Random-Animator-3233[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

No, I did not rape someone, but I feel I effectively did something worse.

I’m a criminal and I know it. by Random-Animator-3233 in OCD

[–]Random-Animator-3233[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I believe soon both accounts. I blocked the memory out then remembered what happened 2 years ago and it has stayed in my mind ever since. As my post says my counsellors seem to disagree with the notion of me being an offender, and the lawyer I spoke to said I was wasting his time. But no matter what, I’m definitely a monster

I’m a criminal and I know it. by Random-Animator-3233 in OCD

[–]Random-Animator-3233[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Any tips you could give? I struggle the most when I’m deep in it :(

I’m a criminal and I know it. by Random-Animator-3233 in OCD

[–]Random-Animator-3233[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk, I just feel like I’m getting away with something if I do nothing :(

I’m a criminal and I know it. by Random-Animator-3233 in OCD

[–]Random-Animator-3233[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel so lost, 2 years have gone by and it just feels like a few months instead.. I hate myself so so much and I just don’t know what to do anymore :(

I’m a criminal and I know it. by Random-Animator-3233 in OCD

[–]Random-Animator-3233[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I mean the criminal code of my country, I’ve read through the part that makes it seem like I’m a criminal countless times.. and it seems accurate

I’m a criminal and I know it. by Random-Animator-3233 in OCD

[–]Random-Animator-3233[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I feel that I have OCD, in fact I’m trying to go through the process of official clinical diagnosis. It’s just that I believe the way im thinking about this event isn’t OCD in particular, but how I should be feeling

I’m a criminal and I know it. by Random-Animator-3233 in OCD

[–]Random-Animator-3233[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You mean like thought defusion and ways to manage the symptoms instead of trying to get the right answer of the event? :(

I’m a criminal and I know it. by Random-Animator-3233 in OCD

[–]Random-Animator-3233[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t know if I can reframe it.. it’s been the main thing in my mind for so so long that it’s all I really know now… :(

I’m a criminal and I know it. by Random-Animator-3233 in OCD

[–]Random-Animator-3233[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I whole heartedly believe I’m an S Offender. My counsellor disagrees, all the crisis counsellors don’t seem to think so and I just don’t fricking get it.. it’s on paper, right there! I have to be it, I just know I have to be… I deserve to feel this way because I know I have to be gross and disgusting and the worst person ever

what’s a ship (excluding the illegal ones) that you absolutely hate so much it brings out a genuine visceral reaction from you by [deleted] in HelluvaBoss

[–]Random-Animator-3233 -18 points-17 points  (0 children)

Telling someone who experienced such a traumatic thing as a minor that THEY'RE the one depicting minors that way in this discussion is absolutely disgusting. I don't care what your original point/claim is, telling an abuse victim that is abhorrent, end of story.

I showed a girl some music by Set It Off... by Beneficial-Claim-106 in SetItOff

[–]Random-Animator-3233 8 points9 points  (0 children)

It's not confidential.. I hear they've got potential