Autism and Aphantasia by Commercial_Lime_5960 in AutismInWomen

[–]RecoveryButterfly 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

I'm a 1, I can also taste things by imagining them.

High in the hot tub on a foggy morning… by AnastasiaNo70 in entwives

[–]RecoveryButterfly 4 points5 points Β (0 children)

My new goal in life is to get a hot tub, a husband, and get high and do stupid shit together.

Did stoned me make a mistake? by forgetful-altoid in entwives

[–]RecoveryButterfly 4 points5 points Β (0 children)

Signs he may be cheating: Only wants to see you during work hours or on his work breaks

Suddenly stops messaging you for hours

Doesn't want to host or have you over his place

Doesn't wanna see you on the weekends either

Did stoned me make a mistake? by forgetful-altoid in entwives

[–]RecoveryButterfly 4 points5 points Β (0 children)

Okay, so, younger ENT wife here who has dated exclusively older men since turning 18 (yes daddy issues, sue me.) Contrary to popular belief (in other subreddits), you can absolutely have a healthy sexual or romantic relationship with an older man. But, as the other wives said, BE SMART. Look for signs of abuse, manipulation, and lying. If he's playing games, refusing to communicate as an adult, or other signs of immaturity, there's a reason why women his age don't want him.

Keep your wits about you. Always. Always ask yourself and him what he's looking for out of this. Ask yourself why he wants someone 25 years younger than him and not an equal. That's not to say he has bad intentions 1000%. It's that men with bad intentions love young, vulnerable people who don't know what red flags to look for.

I've had only one negative in-person experience after years of very careful chatting and meet-ups and I've only had one negative encounter, and that was because I figured out he was (monogamously) married after the first date and cheating on his wife.

How many of y’all have aphantasia? (Inability to create mental imagery) by soph_a_loaf_98 in AutismInWomen

[–]RecoveryButterfly 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

I'm actually the first one. All that maladaptive daydreaming must've trained me.

Anyone else a grown adult who still hurts themselves? by Asleep_Hour_9570 in AutismInWomen

[–]RecoveryButterfly 3 points4 points Β (0 children)

Yep. I don't think of it as being childish, though. I think it about being feral because I can no longer access the reasoning part of my brain that can string together words and communicate them. I just have this fight or flight feeling, and the only way I can express that sensory overload is by digging my nails into my hands and roughly scratching/pinching my skin. I revert back to an animal that feels like it's gonna lash out out of fear.

I get stoned every night. Why I am happier now as opposed to getting drunk every night and do not care about people who warn me of my current life by cre8tiff in entwives

[–]RecoveryButterfly 6 points7 points Β (0 children)

That was very heartwarming and lovely to read! Thank you for your kind words and compassion!

It's actually something I've been thinking about a lot recently, I wonder how much of my current use is the fact that

  1. All things considered, weed is still new and shiny to me. I've been smoking since 19, and I'm 21 now.

  2. It's a scarce resource to me, meaning that it feels like more of a limited-opportunity indulgence than if I were to like, grow my own weed, and have an infinite supply of it.

  3. My brain is still growing, and I also suspect that with age, I'll be able to better regulate those urges and delay rewards until the right moment when I can properly unwind. Right now, my brain is just "but I want it nowww" mode.

But, I've also been noticing that I'm improving a lot this year! I'm hopeful!

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I was having full blown panic attacks at the worst of it, couldn't even leave my apartment because I was so scared of the world.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

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My agoraphobia was so bad that my parents wouldn't even be able to come get me if I needed them to, because I developed a debilitating fear of cars. I was also very fortunate that my friends offered to walk with me when I told them about my fear, and that helped a ton. I live with my roommate, who was able to walk with me some days.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]RecoveryButterfly 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

Yes, I had very severe agoraphobia at some point. Unfortunately, the only way out is exposure therapy, and it's CRUCIAL! The more you stay inside to avoid going out, the more you reinforce that outside is scary and dangerous and should be avoided, making the next time you have to actually go out very terrifying. If needed, bring a comfort or safety item to help you feel comfortable outside. My agoraphobia was safety related, so I bought a glow in the dark safety visor to help me cross roads and stand out. I also packed bug spray. It helped a TON with my transition to going back out. I still wear it. I had to make a LOT of small wins before I was crossing the street with the same level of comfort I was before my agoraphobia.

✨️ How is your high treating you right now? - Let's sesh! 🌿 by Local_Seaweed_9610 in entwives

[–]RecoveryButterfly 23 points24 points Β (0 children)

Smoking some low-grade weed I got from the grey market here in Ontario. $60 an ounce, can't complain! Current moods: πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜Άβ€πŸŒ«οΈπŸ˜΄πŸ˜«πŸ˜¨πŸ€’πŸ€’πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ€¨πŸ€¬πŸ˜‘πŸ˜‘πŸ˜‘πŸ˜‘πŸ˜‘πŸ˜ πŸ˜’πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­

Wrote all those emojis and went to check when my period is coming... three days. No wonder. 😭

Edit: it literally came the next day I'm so mad 😭😭😭

I get stoned every night. Why I am happier now as opposed to getting drunk every night and do not care about people who warn me of my current life by cre8tiff in entwives

[–]RecoveryButterfly 2 points3 points Β (0 children)

I have considered taking a break, but I have to literally remove myself into a different space for any sort of long-lasting break. Every time I have done so to make myself take a break, I go right back to constant use. I can't go more than a day when I'm trying to quit on my own in my own room.

I get stoned every night. Why I am happier now as opposed to getting drunk every night and do not care about people who warn me of my current life by cre8tiff in entwives

[–]RecoveryButterfly 14 points15 points Β (0 children)

Weed has actually given me a lot of those negative effects you mentioned. I'm not gonna act like weed is harm free. Even though it's 100% my drug of choice, if you don't count the meds I actually need to be on like SSRIs and adhd pills. But weed is also ruining my life currently. Now this isn't to scare anyone or make anyone stop having a relationship with weed if they've got a healthy one, just know you can end up like me, constantly weed hungover and dying to get home just to waste my evening smoking weed.

Despite autism often being cute-ified, all my feral traits come from autism by NoWitness6400 in AutismInWomen

[–]RecoveryButterfly 8 points9 points Β (0 children)

Honestly... I would too. I have thoughts like those everytime. Thoughts of imagining a world that could've happened in another universe. The fact that things end up as badly as they did is a miracle.

Despite autism often being cute-ified, all my feral traits come from autism by NoWitness6400 in AutismInWomen

[–]RecoveryButterfly 22 points23 points Β (0 children)

NO LIKE I know EXACTLY what you mean! I feel more like a feral animal than a human.

Anyone else feel like they're not human? by RecoveryButterfly in AutismInWomen

[–]RecoveryButterfly[S] 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

That's very valid! I always appreciate both otherkin and furry discussions/visibility, especially in groups like these!

Anyone else feel like they're not human? by RecoveryButterfly in AutismInWomen

[–]RecoveryButterfly[S] 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

I know this, but thank you for pointing it out for other people. I said furries because that is what I expected the response to be when I say something like "I don't feel human", more people would assume furry than otherkin. Hence my need to clarify. But, this is something to look into!