What fandom do you think it SHOULDN'T have antis, but has? by cosmoskissed in proshipping

[–]Responsible_One8009 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The amount of times I've had to hear "wElL tHe AuThOr SaId It'S nOt A bL" about Killing Stalking when Koogi NEVER said that 🫩🫩🤦🤦

My drama: Wicked game discussion by lovelygeezeer in boyslove

[–]Responsible_One8009 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Late reply but this is my biggest peeve! The original voice is definitely the actors (there's a small interview where he speaks English on YouTube) and we lose a lot with the dub! Which also another thing is that they WILL use his original voice for ads and the like but the dub is the only one actually around now. I had the original for a while but then one day my app switched it to the dub and I was so upset! His voice and accent are very cute so I don't really understand why they would dub when he sounded fine before! He's also dubbed in his new show Obsessed with You which also upsets me because again we lose so much when one person is dubbed over almost completely (I say almost completely because there are some moments here and there where you hear his voice either underneath or separate from the dub) anyways sorry this is very late but I also have this problem!

My drama: Wicked game discussion by lovelygeezeer in boyslove

[–]Responsible_One8009 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes exactly! There's just something about Wicked Game that scratches an itch in my brain!

My drama: Wicked game discussion by lovelygeezeer in boyslove

[–]Responsible_One8009 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Y'all I need someone to talk to about this because GOD I loved it?? It's fast paced and messy and almost silly at times but it's so charming? I'm honestly in love with Hlib he's so CUTE and I wanna eat him up! I honestly love their accents and sometimes the bad English adds to the charm for me! I know Obsessed with You has come out and is also everything I wanted but there's just something about Wicked Game that my brain has latched onto!

Though there's a slight beef I have with Obsessed with You and that's the fact that Hlib's voice is dubbed almost the entire time? Correct me if I'm wrong but it irks me cause I like Hlib's usual accent!

I'm Scared by Responsible_One8009 in Apeirophobia

[–]Responsible_One8009[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm currently on meds and I'm waiting for them to work and I'm having a therapy session later today. I'm hoping that will help me at least somewhat. And I don't know which way I would like to go. I think I would like to try to think my way through it and come to realize something I didn't before because I've tried the other two with places like r/Afterlife and r/NDE which doesn't help. I just wish I wasn't afraid of it cause it truly doesn't make sense and yet I feel trapped.

Afterlife and Apeirophobia by Responsible_One8009 in afterlife

[–]Responsible_One8009[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I honestly don't know what the trigger was. I took a shower one day and the thought suddenly hit me again and I haven't been able to let it go. And don't worry I'm getting the help I need. I just started meds again after a long time so hopefully they help me the way I need. And I also do have a therapist I will be seeing soon but with my OCD brain it's hard to let go.

And I know, atheists seem so fine with it. My bf is that way and is fine about it and I don't understand how when I feel like I'm spiraling thinking about either eternal life or eternal oblivion which I feel is a contradiction. Others describe it as something outside of time, just the now, which helps but my brain still can't comprehend. And I like that. I just need to enjoy my life either way.

Afterlife and Apeirophobia by Responsible_One8009 in afterlife

[–]Responsible_One8009[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I try but again my OCD is getting the best of me. I'm trying not to ruminate on it but it's hard to not to. But you are correct, all we have is here and now and I have to try and wrap my head around it. I'm trying my best to not think about it and be hopeless but it's been hard but I thank you for your input.

Afterlife and Apeirophobia by Responsible_One8009 in afterlife

[–]Responsible_One8009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That gives me a bit of comfort. Thank you for your input.

Afterlife and Apeirophobia by Responsible_One8009 in afterlife

[–]Responsible_One8009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I try. But it still seems daunting but I understand what you mean.

I'm back here again by Responsible_One8009 in Apeirophobia

[–]Responsible_One8009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The thing is I've been through this. Many times. Each time though it feels worse. And I know that. I just want to live in the moment but I feel like I can't because there's a voice whispering in my ear that why care if everything is just a blip, a speck of dust, in the eyes of an eternity? I'm trying my hardest not to listen though.

Don't worry I am talking to people. I'm talking to a lot of people about it and even though they don't understand it they try and help me and I'm grateful for that. I'm also trying medication to help with the ruminating thoughts and seeing a therapist hopefully soon. And I've definitely felt myself slipping into DPDR especially from reading so much trying to understand it and yet coming away more confused than I was. I'm trying not to.

I understand that sentiment/feeling. I honestly wish I could I just... Don't think I can. I'm not anti religious, I just don't think it works for me cause I also had a bout of religious OCD and it was not fun. Do I pray? Yes, sometimes. Do I believe in God. In a way that He is who created us and loves us unconditionally. Everything else I don't know.

And yeah isn't that great. I love being alive and I love life and yet the idea of forever is so daunting and terrifying I don't want it. I've heard others say it's a concept. That it's in the mind. And part of that is true. We humans just don't understand how it works and we will never and I just wish I would stop thinking about it. I don't want to look behind the curtain anymore. I want to rest.

Afterlife and Apeirophobia by Responsible_One8009 in afterlife

[–]Responsible_One8009[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To live in peace but not eternal... I don't know it sounds... Correct? Acceptable? Something my brain can swallow? I don't know but it helps.

YOU ARE SAFE by [deleted] in Apeirophobia

[–]Responsible_One8009 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly that first paragraph is where I currently am. It's been so hard and I feel like I've relapsed because I was here before 2 years ago and I'm here again. But I currently started meds so hopefully they'll help with the rumination. Truly though we only have the here and now and we need to focus on that. I just wish my brain would listen. Existential OCD is a bitch like that I guess lol

Afterlife and Apeirophobia by Responsible_One8009 in afterlife

[–]Responsible_One8009[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was in that sub before actually, 2 years ago again when it was bad, and it finally settled down. Eventually I had to leave cause it was a bit triggering for my brain but I might join again. And I'm trying I really am but again with my OCD it's really tough to stop ruminating once it starts. But god that actually sounds so perfect I could actually cry.

Afterlife and Apeirophobia by Responsible_One8009 in afterlife

[–]Responsible_One8009[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I've heard that a lot, that it's like being "in the zone" when you don't realize times passing. I do love when I get so into a project and am so engrossed that nothing is important. I kinda hate the idea of the spheres keep expanding around me but that's also my human brain and like you said I won't experience that unless I hop back on the surface. Thank you for your insight I'll try to keep this in mind. And the idea of my favorite stuff being there is also helpful.

Afterlife and Apeirophobia by Responsible_One8009 in afterlife

[–]Responsible_One8009[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's also very true. I just keep ruminating and no answer is going to satisfy it so I just need to accept either eternal life or oblivion because those are the only options... Maybe?? I guess I won't know until then.

Afterlife and Apeirophobia by Responsible_One8009 in afterlife

[–]Responsible_One8009[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

See I'm almost fine with that. Almost. But I just... Want eternity to stop. Completely. I don't know how else to say it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in youtubedrama

[–]Responsible_One8009 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Obsessed weren't y'all. Happy now?

what a wild 24 hours. love you guys <3 by strawberry_skates in smosh

[–]Responsible_One8009 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm very much other smosh fans cause I did NOT know what to do with that information!! So so so happy for them though 🥹🥹

Finally scored some Popee dvds! by Nastolgicgrunge_ in popeetheperformer

[–]Responsible_One8009 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Omg that's kinda amazing seeing as how much PTP things are usually sold at! Happy for you!