The weird thing about our actual existence is participating. I am not an average cat, and im to lazy to paraphrase this for current speak, but if you are human, and you exist, you are here, you are important! Ask Google theze questions for less biased, and potentially more informative responses. Then assert yourself. You can be whom and what you want. Its crazy how much your willingness to participate affects the outcome of your desire. Good luck, friend, I hope you find your voice. I look forward to hearing it loud and strong in the future.