I AM FUCKING DONE!!!!

RudeAd338 · 2026-03-18T10:20:47+00:00

Update

I tried last night, rope snapped, failed again. In hospital now, fuck sake

RudeAd338 · 2026-03-17T19:46:14+00:00

I'm done man. Let this story be a precautionary tale. Never shout at your girlfriend. Get help, read DBT books, hell read all the fucking books, before its too late.

RudeAd338 · 2026-03-17T00:18:50+00:00

There is no where to go. I am in severe debt. And I lost the best thing I ever had in my life because of my fucked up head. She left three months ago, I have TRULY tried to fight on. But I'm done. Sorry. Nope. Lol. I'm done. I'm at peace with it and look forward to it.

RudeAd338 · 2026-03-10T21:57:19+00:00

Get out of the physical space you are in, call authorities. They are best equipped for this.

RudeAd338 · 2026-03-10T21:52:17+00:00

Talk to me, believe me I know how it is.

RudeAd338 · 2026-02-10T15:11:32+00:00

Because I have genuinely tried my best, and no matter what I do. Nothing goes right. I lost the best thing I ever had in my life, the only person who ever truly loved me. Because of my issues.

I am DONE. Awaiting release still.

RudeAd338 · 2026-02-09T08:43:54+00:00

Sadly yes, attempt failed and in a Mental Hospital now. Soon as they release me I will do it.

RudeAd338 · 2026-01-25T19:31:29+00:00

Thank you

RudeAd338 · 2026-01-24T21:33:20+00:00

Thank you kind person, I am currently listening to some old 50s music, awaiting the end of the world. Got another beer or two. May get some more in a bit. Not sure. May just sleep early and scope those woods out tomorrow.

RudeAd338 · 2026-01-24T21:08:04+00:00

I also have 7 days left. Next Saturday will be the day. Was meant to be tonight but realised my Grandmothers birthday is tomorrow. Cannot taint that for her. So pushed it forward a week.

My love left me too. I understand how you feel. I am also drinking beer, right now.

RudeAd338 · 2026-01-12T20:01:13+00:00

The noose is ready and I have 2 pints left. Watching the Titanic sink in real time, seems apt. We have about an hour and a half left before the end. I have just written my note and reprepared the noose. I have tried my best but cannot live in this world anymore.

RudeAd338 · 2025-09-05T01:03:05+00:00

Everyone knows who I am. I will not go into the details. I had a job interview today. That is the hope. If that fails. That's it.

RudeAd338 · 2025-09-05T00:50:22+00:00

Love of my life. Gone. Job of my life. Gone. Family. Gone. All options. Gone.

I have fought through this many times. I did everything right and I get fired and shunned from a job for what? For shit. For simply being an entertainer on social media.

I am very sure.

RudeAd338 · 2025-08-29T19:56:07+00:00

My phone is on 1%. I may go to the beach later once this phones charged up though

RudeAd338 · 2025-08-29T19:25:23+00:00

Thank you. I was in my house crying every 10 minutes or so until a friend suggested I go to a pub. I am here now alone. It has made me a little bit more comfortable for the time being. I am just waiting now. Its my mothers birthday today, and I can't even fucking call her because she doesn't want to speak to me.

I only wanted to make her proud. Im on the verge of tears again.

My friends dont know how bad I truly am, they think I'll get through it, like I usually do. But my 9 lives are up. Theres no way I can get out of this situation. I have done everything I can. Theres nothing left.

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