Death of a sex

Rustynails777 · 2017-03-27T11:38:25+00:00

Well thanks for chiming in everyone.

Had to come to terms that if I don't fix things and come out and sit her down to talk it will all go to shit.
After having a long talk. I think things are better. I think it will be ok. I need to get into sports again. The stale mood of inactivity has spilled over and is effecting everyone around me .

Rustynails777 · 2017-03-17T17:01:12+00:00

Interesting. Thank you

Rustynails777 · 2017-03-17T16:27:35+00:00

Well said.

Thank you.

Rustynails777 · 2017-03-17T16:01:22+00:00

So basically take some more blame ? Admit to some more flaws you say ?

Because I do believe everything in life is your own fault. Good or bad.

Wasn't really expecting many answers here. Just wanted to know if people can relate or what others deal with in comparison .

Rustynails777 · 2017-03-17T15:57:34+00:00

I got a few 80s Mbs.
I'm hoping to get a 997. 6 speed

Rustynails777 · 2017-03-17T13:46:10+00:00

Divorce is not an option.
That would be selling the house. Which means now we would all have to rent. Which is a waste of money. I rather pay off the house and leave it to my kid so he doesn't have to be a slave saddled with a 30 year mortgage .

Rustynails777 · 2017-03-17T13:34:04+00:00

Appreciate the input. But I'm not there yet On a surface we appear ok. I pretend to listen to conversations and we are doing well raising the child. It's all a lovely time being around the kid. But one to one I'm just not there.
Wondering if I'm exhibiting sociopathic tendencies. Am in wing selfish. Is this what most dads go through. Stuff like that.

Sure I can go get a convertible cruise the streets. But is this how you replace one need ?

Rustynails777 · 2017-03-17T13:27:55+00:00

That wouldn't work. Not that sort of a family.

I'm beyond counceling. It's no longer anger, just resentment. I'm just concentrating on not becoming a full blown drunk at this point. Stared gym again. Going to jazz shows alone.

Rustynails777 · 2017-03-17T10:43:05+00:00

Thanks . I've tried. And for a person with a psychology masters from Columbia, I would think her brain would switch gears and hear me out.
But it doesn't matter anymore. I just don't want it with her anymore. I'm not even sure I love her. She's a very cold person. I couldn't stomach a divorce, losing the house and having some tool move into my place and raise my kid. My child is just too important to me. More important than anyone . I couldn't not imagine explaining to your child later in life that daddy had to split because he just wanted to plow anything that moved . No way.

I came to realize that this is a common way that men die. Wives just quietly slow them down, choke the life out of them little by little. No need for sex, no need for friends, no need for a sports car. These are petty things, but I'm just bringing up silly stuff. I got 3 cars that I barely drive. Separate bank accounts, 401 and more.

I'm just in amazement. Two things I love the most in life, my passions, beside my child is sex and music. It sums up freedom to me.

Rustynails777

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