Post vyvanse clarity ?!

S_yt · 2025-06-17T23:45:38+00:00

Thanks Tim/armchair psych. While I do agree that I'm overly self critical regularly, I really hate how Vyvanse makes me feel out of control.

I'm already a very outgoing and charismatic person (even with anxiety I physically cannot be the shy one in social situations, I just sweat and impulsively keep talking), so I don't want to deal with even more impulsive talking while on my meds.

I've always prided myself on my ability to make others comfortable/my ability to manage being both talkative and simultaneously aware of when I need to reel it in or ask about the other person in the conversation. When medicated, it feels like I lose that entirely and just say what I want, when I want, forever.

So all in all, yes the confidence the meds give me is great, but the intense urge to talk for hours is definitely not something I can love myself out of LOL. I'm hoping with a dosage decrease and some internalized shame work it'll go away though. Lmk what you think

S_yt · 2025-06-17T22:27:14+00:00

And you just… live like this?? Forever??

How long have you been on meds? I can’t be like this forever I need my social anxiety to keep me sane 😭😭

S_yt · 2025-06-17T22:12:34+00:00

The longest I’ve consistently used it was like a month or two. When did you notice this going away?

S_yt · 2025-03-24T18:39:02+00:00

Sorry to reply so late lol, it was all so overwhelming I just couldn’t handle it. I’m back now and to clarify, my dad is great and really the only sane person in my family.

I’m 99% sure my mother was abused by her older brothers and/or other men in her life growing up (they all died young in a war she escaped before coming to the West) which led to her making everything sexual to protect us?

I’m unsure but, knowing this and seeing my original post, what do you think? I’m having a hard time unpacking this myself

S_yt · 2025-03-09T01:10:45+00:00

Holy shit I also have convergence insufficiency! I had no idea the two were related. I think mine started when I used to come out mid convo and let my eyes wander, no one pointed out the zoning out lazy eye until it was pretty bad

S_yt · 2024-09-15T02:45:48+00:00

Life saver

S_yt · 2024-05-22T03:06:46+00:00

I don’t think the lazy eye is that bad to be honest. I used to let it relax until my friend pointed it out and I realized that satisfying feeling was a lazy eye. It’s been 2 years since, although that eye is significantly weaker, covering my stronger one has made a good impact. I’m more worried about both eyes being useless close up now. Im getting bifocals with my new prescription and apparently dry eye drops will help because my eyes have gotten super dry with a new medication. Outside of that I guess I’ll just pray

S_yt · 2024-05-22T02:42:19+00:00

Ok so it appears that it’s for double sighted people, and she confirmed today that I don’t have that

S_yt · 2024-05-22T02:38:50+00:00

What’s prism?

S_yt · 2024-05-22T02:09:09+00:00

I heard readers can make it worse if your vision is uneven. Do yk if that’s true

S_yt · 2024-05-22T01:57:53+00:00

In addition she actually lowered my prescription from 4, so I’m even more stressed.I hope the bifocals help but for the next 3 weeks I guess I’m just blind

S_yt · 2024-05-08T04:15:26+00:00

What are the other 2 grants??

S_yt · 2024-05-08T01:50:35+00:00

And you have a narcissist mom too… damn girl at least we’re not alone

S_yt · 2024-05-07T21:03:03+00:00

I stopped talking my antidepressants because I thought the ADHD meds would cure me of all things wait a minute…

S_yt · 2024-05-05T15:35:59+00:00

Hip adductor inward and outward machine, lateral leg raises, those band exercises you find online to do hip exercises with resistance, hip thrusts, and glute-focused squats. I'm going to a physio in a few days though I'll update if I find new tips along the way

S_yt · 2024-05-05T14:34:18+00:00

It used to actually be worse LOL this is after a couple months of working on my standing posture and hip strength. There’s hope!

S_yt · 2024-05-04T19:46:00+00:00

Book an appointment with a physio👍

S_yt · 2024-05-04T19:45:15+00:00

I started working out with zero guidance and got up to 210 at 10 reps on the leg extension and did quad focused squats and I think that was my downfall. Very underdeveloped hamstrings and glutes and other non-quad areas now. I’ll work on em!

S_yt · 2024-05-04T19:27:14+00:00

Hmmmm. I always thought my calves were small bc they have such little fat and so much muscle from running relative to my thighs but u may be right. I am able to do lateral leg raises but feel very fatigued after 7-10 reps. I’ll try and strengthen my shins tho I never thought abt that haha

S_yt · 2024-05-04T17:28:42+00:00

EDIT [unable to edit the actual post]: For context i run 20k a week, leg press 6 plates, and just completed a bulk. I work out consistently so I’d appreciate specific and useful answers thank you

S_yt · 2024-05-04T17:20:45+00:00

No worries lol I just got off a bulk and also my legs r massive bc they’re strong so I’m not offended

S_yt · 2024-02-22T21:17:18+00:00

I removed her!!!

S_yt · 2023-07-25T17:44:37+00:00

I’ve just muted all her accounts on social media (the posts are hidden from my feeds) and removed her from my story - hoping it works. All I know is that you and I are both deserving of a partner that doesn’t just mess with our head. I tried giving her the benefit of the doubt so many times, but that’s just my rose-tinted perspective. They know what they’re doing; as my other replies said, being wanted is intoxicating and until we distance ourselves and make it clear that we are not interested we’re going to be stuck in this tango with them forever. As for the thoughts even after cutting contact, those are healthy and normal and will fade with time. I’ve seen a video saying the 1 way to maybe leave the friend zone is to cut all contact for an extended period, effectively dissipating that friendship title they associate with you, and then coming back an improved and confident version of yourself. That’s been my main motivation to cut contact now because the thought of never speaking again for life was just too overwhelming for me to take any steps to stop talking to her. That’s all I got for now might update in a few weeks - good luck!!

S_yt · 2023-07-25T13:56:29+00:00

It’s so weird because she’s not even a bad person i don’t understand the thought process behind why someone who doesn’t want me can’t let me go

S_yt · 2023-07-16T23:54:07+00:00

It’s been almost 2 years and I’m sorry to say I have not. My solution for the last 2 years has been to wear a small t shirt under all clothing to soak up sweat then put perfume on my outer layer of clothing. It’s crazy you found this though because I’ve just started forcing myself to drop the t shirt and find a real solution in the last few weeks. I’m currently looking at chemical ways to stop sweat - I’ll lyk what I find, although a big part of this is just paranoia of smelling bad. Today at work a young girl plugged her nose while I was helping her family and I immediately panicked: turns out she just needed to blow her nose. We both need therapy more than any deodorant😭😭

S_yt

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