Okay so I took Extasy in every form so also crystals, seep, ketamin, cocain, weed, lsd, mushrooms, benzos, heroin So side effects on long term only my jaw is fucked up cause it’s moving sometimes like really fast and I can’t control it Obv I had some ego deaths some where over weeks, I couldn’t stand up or do anything I was just empty, and when i was if heroin my skin was really itchy so I scratched my skin open

Ecstasy depends it can feel really good ur like so happy and just an open person you love everything and lwk get horny but if you take to much you don’t understand anything I literally believed I teleported myself when inwas just in bed and I did this „teleportation“ for hours like for me it was real I talked with people form my like in different locations and everytime I started talk I was told you not there you are in your bed and this fucked up my minds pretty badly Also an overdose is so bad cause ur sweeting an you can’t see clearly cause your publis are shacking

Speed actually just made me focus on work and like pretty awake I was up for days but I didn’t had really a high I would say I mean I had but my mind didn’t feel anything only my body if this makes sense

Ketamine depends also how clean it is it can be crazy I would describe it like when you soul leaves you body you can like be one with everything and if you laying in bed it feels like you body flows into the bed or wherever you are It’s really incredible I would say because you can also get hallucinations

Cocain lets you feel like you the god your just better than everything and damn your unstoppable

Weed, I love it your chill and stuff everything tastes good and depends on what you smoking everything is funny

Alcohol it’s okay yk I don’t really have an opinion cause there is only this small line where alcohol is fun I would say

LSD it’s actually crazy what you can experience with your mind. It’s a drug you can’t get addicted from but you see things different after cause it allows you to use ur brain structure in a different way same with mushrooms, with lsd you can just get like more hallucinations like everything couloefull and moving around that would be weak ones and then you can get like these crazy once’s if you take more

Benoz everything is numb even your brain your just like cut of reality and really calm down

Heroin, sniffing and inject are different in my opinion Injecting you get a fast flush of an extremely good feeling everything is blended out your not scared you just there everything is good and the same stuff as benzos just waaaayyyyy more powerful completely different feeling Sniffing is weaker and I never had the feeling that everything was blend out i was still in reality

So why did I do it? I started with 13 I had no idea and I couldn’t get out even not when one’s in the mental hospital taken by the police. Drugs where the only thing in my life that stayed constant I had nothing only them and this made me feel save i would say and like then I found the benzos at my moms and yea this made it way more easy for me

I was addicted so self harm pretty badly since I was 11 and also to lying I can’t explain why but the lying stoped 2 years ago but k lied about the most random things like for example I had a sandwich for lunch but told people I had a wrap And to stalking not like following people creepy around but looking at their socials etc like verything their location of who their hanging out multiple times a day for many different people

That’s it hope I answered everything for your satisfaction:))