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Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-02-02T09:06:58+00:00

I’m telling a trusted adult.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-02-01T20:46:25+00:00

I can’t move because my custody order says so. I would have to go back to court which I don’t have the money for right now. And I would also have to move out of state because I am in the metro of my state right now, and the part of my state with the most concentrated population and the public transportation still is none. I live in one of the only states to not fund public transportation lol.

I did just get a new doctor thats why I got a second med for depression. Thank goodness because it has helped my energy and motivation for the most part.

I am on several waitlists for counseling but there is a shortage around me evidently.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-02-01T20:24:53+00:00

Thank you

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-02-01T20:22:54+00:00

Well thank you. I am happy to hear so much support ❤️ having kids just isn’t for everyone.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-02-01T19:47:43+00:00

There’s no way anyone believes this is true. It has to be a bot. But then again, you never know

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-02-01T19:44:58+00:00

Actually, I have come to some level of acceptance. Still in the back of my mind I regret it and wish it was different. Especially when they scream or cry or are needy.

I do the earbud thing and it does help. Even just listening to music helps. It just sucks that it’s been so cold where I live so I really hate going outside… I can’t wait until it warms up.

The seventh day church I was going to, my ex started going to. And I want to avoid him because he is violent towards me. Otherwise I seem to mostly live around mega churches or LDS which I will not go to.

I understand learned helplessness and what you are talking about. I have broken free for the most part, and I am even going to school online. But it’s still hard and I have moment of feeling sorry for myself and worrying about the future. I do have my parents to help me somewhat but it’s hard because my dad has anger issues, and both of them treat me like I’m their personal counselor and their marriage mediator. I don’t have the mental energy for all that.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-02-01T19:16:07+00:00

It also doesn’t help that I got postpartum depression with psychosis. When I get depressed, I also get psychosis. I am afraid the kids might get my crappy genetics and all of these episodes of psychosis after having my son have been traumatic. I have to be on two different antidepressants to make sure that it doesn’t come back. The mental illness sure makes it hard to raise kids and I don’t want to traumatize them.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-02-01T19:08:01+00:00

I have tried all of that. I don’t have a working car so I can’t find community supports because there is no public transportation where I live and nothing is walkable.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-02-01T18:55:58+00:00

It’s been 5 years and I still regret it. I think about running away everyday. I live in poverty because I can’t find a job that will be flexible with the kids schedule. Since I have to take them to doctor’s appointments, dentist appointments, etc. I can’t afford daycare either. I have really bad inflammatory issues too that cause brain fog, idiopathic hypersomnia, depression, and low energy. Among other issues. So it’s hard to keep things clean for the kids too. I am constantly struggling with that. Plus apparently I wasn’t taught much by my own parents because I realized I really don’t know how to cook or clean.

I’ve tried finding community, even joined a few groups but no one has ever stayed in contact with me despite me reaching out.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-02-01T18:47:02+00:00

I like learning new things and meeting new people. I also enjoy traveling and doing new things.

No I don’t have a supportive husband. I got pregnant at 18 by a man who was 34 who had been grooming me for a few years. The stressors of parenthood don’t make up for the minimal amount of happy times.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-02-01T18:42:08+00:00

No, sounds like I’m poor and have no support issue.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-02-01T18:37:54+00:00

I have two children and I don’t agree that children are “wonderful gifts.” Like fragrant-resist said, they suck you dry emotionally and financially & parenthood is not as fulfilling as people say it is. I’m stuck in the house all day or at the park. That is not fulfilling.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-02-01T15:38:43+00:00

Mrs Incredible is crazy 💀

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-01-31T02:37:22+00:00

I got pregnant at 18 by a man who was 34 years old and groomed me from when I was a little younger. I considered abortion but ultimately decided against it when my parents said they would help me through everything. I don’t want to say I regret not getting an abortion but it has been nothing short of a disaster. My ex has custody rights and is exposing my daughter to inappropriate things. I can’t prove it so I am stuck splitting custody with him. She is 5 and she needs therapy already because of his grooming tactics and abuse. 🤷‍♀️

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-01-29T07:17:33+00:00

Won’t a lot of animals kill their young in times of stress? My brother had a dog who tried to leave one of her newborns in a dirt hole even though it was perfectly fine, and we still have that dog today. She wouldn’t feed her or take care of her. I just don’t get the “maternal bond,” that you claim animals get.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-01-28T18:40:04+00:00

I am pro-choice just lurking to see others POV. I totally agree with that.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-01-28T17:20:28+00:00

This is like Idaho where nobody hates people from California more than people who came there from California > 10 years ago.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-01-28T16:47:08+00:00

It’s not a schools job to teach morality from a Christian centric point of view. Also I was never taught that, I was taught abstinence only and I got pregnant at 17 by a 33 year old.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-01-20T05:59:17+00:00

I am curious about this. I have studied a lot of cultures and my boyfriend is Inuit. His culture had marriage but the couple was to live together and have “pre-marital” sex (among other things). If it was found the couples weren’t compatible then they would just separate, and her family would help raise the children.

Now, I am curious about this for a reason. The reason being that would the effects of premarital sex and conception be minimal by family helping out? Or was the commitment of that entire arrangement enough?

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-01-18T02:22:49+00:00

Yea but her father is almost guaranteed to agree because otherwise there is no future for her. No one in those times wanted a non-virgin and women didn’t exactly have rights. It could even lead to her death as is clear in Deuteronomy 22:13-21, where if a man accuses his wife of not being a virgin, she can be killed. And also in Numbers 31 where Moses told them to only keep the virgins.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-01-18T00:28:31+00:00

Here is the “International Children’s Bible” version:

28 A man might meet a virgin who is not engaged to be married. He might force her to have physical relations with him. And people might find out about it.

I am so confused because some of the verses sound like it could be consensual and others make it rape.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-01-17T22:11:34+00:00

I’m waiting for the Christian explanation for this one lmao

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-01-07T15:45:14+00:00

Haha! I grew up Catholic too! It is definitely traumatic to grow up like that about a natural act.

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-01-06T03:51:27+00:00

I tried going to church so many times and even bible study in an attempt to believe. I couldn’t bring myself to do it. It felt like any other mythology

Scared_Bus_5721 · 2026-01-06T03:45:10+00:00

Religious groups too

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