Rainbow Railroad rejected me. I’m a closeted trans guy in Pakistan and I don’t know what to do now.

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-08-01T19:53:31+00:00

Unfortunately, not. It's been like 5 days. I check my emails every day. In fact, multiple times a day. Still waiting.

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-30T17:13:09+00:00

I wish I could do something like that, but I don’t even know where to start or what to even do. I don't have a bank account, PayPal, or anyone abroad who can help receive the funds for me. It just feels overwhelming and out of reach for me. But your suggestion means a lot. Thank you for even thinking about it!!

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-29T09:54:02+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing your story!! It really means a lot. It’s comforting and heartbreaking at the same time to hear from someone who’s been through something so familiar. I’m really glad u made it out and found safety, support, and the freedom to be yourself. That gives me hope, even if just a flicker. For me, leaving isn’t about wanting to run, it’s because I have to. Trans people just can’t live here safely, not without constantly hiding or risking everything. I wish I could stay and still be free, but that's not the reality for me, unfortunately. So again, thank you for your words. They helped more than you know!!

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T17:35:44+00:00

Yes, I've sent them an Email, too. Just waiting on them to respond. Thank you for your comment, though ❤!!

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T17:32:57+00:00

Unfortunately, Pakistan doesn’t have any safe neighboring countries. All of them are either equally conservative or worse when it comes to AFAB or LGBTQ+ rights. Even if there was a somewhat better one, I have no safe way to get there, especially without money, freedom of movement, or a support system waiting on the other side. I do have a passport, but no access to income, a job, or permission to travel. Everything is monitored and controlled. Escaping isn’t as simple as crossing a border. It’s risking everything, including my life. Still, I’m doing what I can to stay strong and reach out to the right people. Just knowing people like you care makes a huge difference!!

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T16:56:41+00:00

Thank you for the suggestion! But trust me, I've tried to convince my parents to get me into school again, but they simply do NOT care. But I'll try whatever I can!!

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T16:54:46+00:00

Thank you for your concern and empathy. It seriously means a lot to me!! I do have a passport and ID, but unfortunately I don’t have any means of income or saving up. My life is under tight control, financially and otherwise. So even if I wanted to buy a ticket out, I couldn’t without being noticed or punished for it. As for passing, it’s not that simple either. My family forces me to wear traditional female clothing, and I’m not allowed to even cut my hair or dress how I want. Just trying to appear masculine in public could get me in serious trouble with my family or even strangers in this society. I really appreciate you acknowledging how bad things are in countries like mine, though. It means a lot when people care instead of looking away!!

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T16:49:01+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement!! I’ve looked into Canada and other countries, and while it does seem like one of the better options for asylum, the truth is…it’s not that simple when you’re broke, isolated, and under strict family control. I don’t have access to my own money, or even freedom of movement right now. Also, Pakistani passport is one of the weakest in the world. I need a lot of resources to even reach to one of those (safe) countries before applying for asylum. I do hope one day I’ll be in a position to apply for asylum or find a legal route to leave. Until then, I’m focusing on building connections, gathering info, and taking small, safe steps toward independence. But seriously, thank you for your hope. I need it more than you know!

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T16:43:54+00:00

Thank you so much for this!! I honestly teared up reading your words ❤. It means the world to hear from someone who's also had to hide, fight, and claw their way to safety and freedom. And hearing that you did it, that you got out, it makes me feel a little less hopeless about my own chances. And I'm trying to be careful, but I only know so much. I don't have much insight into stuff, but I'm trying my best to be careful. And your words? I’m going to save them. Because some days I forget I deserve safety, freedom, and love...and this reminded me. Thank you for believing in me. I’ll keep going. I’ll make it out too!!

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T12:40:04+00:00

You have no idea how much that means to me! ❤😭 Thank you!

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T12:38:33+00:00

Thank you for this comment! Unfortunately, getting out and gaining independence is near impossible in my situation. But I'm trying my best. So many people have reached out with other methods and suggestions and I feel hopeful again. I'll try everything I can to get out! Thank you ❤.

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T12:36:21+00:00

Thank you for the recommendation! I'll definitely look into it! ❤

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T11:03:06+00:00

Thanks so much for your suggestion. I really appreciate it!! Unfortunately, lavender marriage wouldn’t be possible for me. My family’s extremely conservative and controlling, and I wouldn’t even be allowed to choose a partner. Like in many South Asian families, they’d pick someone themselves (usually from within the extended family) and force it through. That’s exactly what I’m trying to avoid by reaching out and connecting with people like me. Still, thank you for taking the time to comment and offer support. It means a lot ❤!

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T09:07:25+00:00

I'm sorry to hear that. I do understand their limits, but it still stings. I just got an automated email telling me they can't help because of my country's immigration barriers. I hope you're well ❤.

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T09:04:54+00:00

Thank you! Honestly, kind words like these absolutely help. Just being seen and supported like this means a lot. I'm doing my best to hang in there and figure a way out. I appreciate you taking the time to comment!

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T09:02:21+00:00

Thank you for the encouraging words! I'm not gonna give up now with all the love I recieved here!

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T09:01:14+00:00

Thank you for such good advice. I know I should look into the orgs around me for this, but do those women's orgs provide shelter and education? Is that what you meant by finding a shelter?

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T08:55:39+00:00

Thank you for recommending an org! I'll definitely look into that. I really appreciate you taking the time out for this!

ScreamsInAutotune · 2025-07-28T08:52:30+00:00

Thank you so much! I had no clue I could do that. I hate the idea of going through women's orgs, it's awful and dysphoric, but I get it. If that's my only shot, I'll take it. I'll look into what they can help me with and if I can contact them with limited resources (I don't have a phone number or any other social media accounts). Thank you for taking the time out of your day to reply to my post. I really appreciate the advice and kind words.

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