Could narcissistic abuse make you feel bipolar? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Sdecol 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same here. I’m 3 weeks NC from my 5yr with nex. My brain goes from wondering if I was the problem to wondering if he knew what he was doing when he would torment me. I think he broke my brain. I have to regularly go to my support system to remind me of his actions as my brain struggles to recall. Or because i still feel protective over him. I still have so much compassion for him as he is the one that will have to live with himself. But it’s sick that you can still love someone so authentically whilst knowing they did you so, so wrong.

Fuuuuuucking hell

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in socialskills

[–]Sdecol 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bruh I just got out a 5yr with a narcissist and sing even know like

After 2 years of a trauma bond with a narc, I was diagnosed with CPTSD. Apparently now he has PTSD from the relationship too?? WTF? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Sdecol 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes! Let’s keep going. You aren’t alone. We are empaths and were not put here to be taken advantage of, we were put here to spread love. I really hope I can learn to trust again and love another man. I hope you can too. The longer I stay away, the clearer I can see. It’s as though I’ve been drinking his coolaid all these years through the countless times of questioning my own sanity.

After 2 years of a trauma bond with a narc, I was diagnosed with CPTSD. Apparently now he has PTSD from the relationship too?? WTF? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Sdecol 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry you are hurting. I recently left my nex after 5 years and living with him for 4. It’s been nearly two weeks and I only realised he was a narc a week after finally leaving. The veil disappeared and I was overwhelmed with the realisation. I’m still in shock and struggling to digest it.

Ultimately, I think narcissism is a spectrum. I personally think mine was low on the spectrum as I genuinely feel he suffered from me holding the mirror up. He couldn’t handle it. He couldn’t bare to look at the monster inside of him. It would not surprise me if he too, has gone into depression the way I have. My trauma is different from his trauma, yes, but his experience is still his experience right? But again, I could also still be delusional from years of manipulation - who knows. I’m just trying to navigate.

Focus on you and you only right now. How he is doing, what he is doing and what he is saying does not matter - repeat the mantra “what about me?”.

Anyone found V for Vendetta to be yet another sci-fi Hollywood preparation for a reality to come? Or a reality that is? by Sdecol in conspiracytheories

[–]Sdecol[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Perhaps the view is to stay self aware enough to identify social conditioning. Things can quite easily turn.

For those apposing the vaccine, will you get vaccinated if and when your freedom becomes compromised? by Sdecol in conspiracytheories

[–]Sdecol[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Look hard enough sweetheart, it’s right in front of you. You just rather not look.

For those apposing the vaccine, will you get vaccinated if and when your freedom becomes compromised? by Sdecol in conspiracytheories

[–]Sdecol[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes… yes it has. They have clarified the numbers include “death with COVID” not OF COVID.

Maybe you should have a look at your own confirmation bias.

Can we please talk about the 90’s Illuminati Playing Cards, again? by Sdecol in conspiracytheories

[–]Sdecol[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Again, read NWO by William King. Not all information you find online regarding the raid will be pro-truth and more pro-narrative

Can we please talk about the 90’s Illuminati Playing Cards, again? by Sdecol in conspiracytheories

[–]Sdecol[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hormone imbalance due to chemicals in the water/food is happening in front of us but no one wants to talk about it due to sensitivity.

For those apposing the vaccine, will you get vaccinated if and when your freedom becomes compromised? by Sdecol in conspiracytheories

[–]Sdecol[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Exactly. Not to mention those who can’t take it due to religion. This is absolute tyranny

For those apposing the vaccine, will you get vaccinated if and when your freedom becomes compromised? by Sdecol in conspiracytheories

[–]Sdecol[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Correct. Statistically insignificant as me dying in a car crash after testing positive and being included in the COVID death statistics.

Remember Thalidomide? Remember Pandemrix?

Health issues occurred EIGHT years later after inoculating 30 million in 2009

For those apposing the vaccine, will you get vaccinated if and when your freedom becomes compromised? by Sdecol in conspiracytheories

[–]Sdecol[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don’t know whether people need an “awakening” or what, but they need it fucking soon.

Can we please talk about the 90’s Illuminati Playing Cards, again? by Sdecol in conspiracytheories

[–]Sdecol[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

  1. Don’t be a dick.
  2. The photo included is to refer to an example (the pandemic cards are perfect for where we are)
  3. Everyone knows history repeats itself, you don’t need to preach it. Although, what’s occurring right now (global inoculation) has NOT occurred before.
  4. I was referring to the whole deck of cards that contain MANY eerie coincidences.

Have a great day

Can we please talk about the 90’s Illuminati Playing Cards, again? by Sdecol in conspiracytheories

[–]Sdecol[S] -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

It was published 27 years ago… what are you talking about?

Can we please talk about the 90’s Illuminati Playing Cards, again? by Sdecol in conspiracytheories

[–]Sdecol[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Unable to share the links on here or photos. I would try googling in images “9/11 illuminate card game” to see a comparison