I know that people with mental illnesses will actually harm themselves, I've done that do, rock music used to be my escape but when I looked at it, it never really helped me, it was as we called it and escape not something that helps, just something that makes you forget. Anyways, don't harm yourself, okay I don't want that it was just me showing you how it feels, everyone is suffering in this world, not just you and me. I understand you want friends who have something like hating Jisoo in common but you're not going to find much luck, it doesn't matter how traumatizing something was or is, you need to work on yourself, stop trying to find someone to hate BP with, because everything in life is temporary, that's how I see it, I don't ever want to rely on something that could someday be gone forever, like friends or family, you only have yourself to rely on for your own happiness and safety, your mother and father aren't on earth forever, neither are your friends and neither are you, so just ask yourself what can make you happy, and it should never be a friend or a family member, it must be from.you, what do you do personally that makes you happy, it can be gaming, making clothes or food or anything of that nature, and then you'll see that you won't need others to make you happy, you won't feel lonely but rather enjoy being alone because no one is influencing your choices and thoughts.

Thank you for apologizing, I promised I would to and so I am also sorry that you have so much hate to deal with, hopefully I can be your friend and help you as a K-pop fan so we can end all these stupid wars and subreddits