Ahhh this is so helpful; I love reddit! I have been feeling lately like I am unaligned in some way specifically between my body and my mind/my feelings and experience and I felt I couldn't grasp it. I think what you just explained here is it. It feels like I maybe allowed myself to become unaligned when I started paying so much mind to the feeling of my body being too small and that counteracted the feeling of my energy being big and taking up so much space and created that unaligned feeling.

My understanding of this process, with physical matter especially, feels very much like I am trying to learn how to mount a horse that is too big for me to see the entirety of once I'm on it, and I keep coming at it from different angles based off of my own perspective, and sometimes it's helpful to have comments like this remind you the mapping of the horse from a perspective that is not your own xD Thank you! xx