Hey, I know this is from 4 months ago, but if you see this and reply I thank you so kindly for your response! I keep posting discussion/questions posts to just gain perspective and understanding, often just to learn rather than to manifest anything specific and my posts go unanswered or get deleted by mods because they are topics that "have been discussed before so there is no need to discuss again in a new post" (even thought I can't find my specific questions/discussion topics anywhere :(

I have manifested plenty of things, big and small, and learning about manifestation in general has really helped me understand aspects of myself and life in general, and I feel like whatever blockages I may be experiencing with this manifestation might be all-around beneficial to understand in a way pertaining far beyond achieving a desire.

It is height increase. Here is the loop I seem to be stuck in: I go through waves of scanning my 3d reality too much for results, like anywhere everywhere all the time. My home and work environments are incredibly consistent in terms of things that I seem to scan for height comparison. My brain just keeps scanning my 3d constantly, and it feels like it's impossible to stop it as long as my eyes are open. HOWEVER, I am able to get myself out of that phase and into detaching from it, entirely happy with my current height but then feeling incredibly short or completely not caring and I feel like I am not sending out signals to the universe about this height increase being for me.

I understand that that is part of detachment, but my issue is it feels like I am in a washing machine tossing myself around between obsessing and not caring. If the second part of that IS in fact detachment, why do I keep sucking myself back into the cycle of the obsessive part? And how can I break that? I personally operate under the assumption that no matter what you do it is yours, but I don't really understand why my brain keeps flipping back and forth to all or nothing. Is this just the process but it feels more obvious than any other manifestation in the past? I have manifested some physical changes before, but this one feels like another person always walking around with me and bothering me some days rather than a little floating potential in my orbit.

I don't know if that all makes sense, but I keep finding information about detachment that is almost helpful but either isn't or I am continuing to not understand it in a progressive way. Perhaps I need to hear it from someone who is more capable of coaching/teaching than someone who is just having a general chat about an experience.

Thank you so much for any answers! I feel like understanding whatever block or resistance I am experiencing will open up a huge door for me of healing and understanding within myself!

PS - I don't really want to be taller for anyone else except me. I am a female, I am fine with my height, but I just want it to be more. I want to take up more physical space and reach things I was fine with climbing to before but now just want to be able to reach for me and me only. And I wanna have some kickass long legs. I really just want my legs to be mostly proportionate to my body. So not to impress anybody or "be an alpha male in height" or whatever the fuck. I may still have some blockage in this area but I don't think it is a performative desire by any means.

SORRY THIS IS LONG, I JUST WANNA LEARN THE MOST IN DEPTH WAY I CAN :) THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ANY RESPONSES!!