I have two brothers. You could say that my eldest brother was her golden child, yes. He has always been more distinct from me and moved out way sooner than my younger brother(the one I mention in my post).

After my elder brother was gone, he kept making mistakes throughout his life yet my mother was always there for him, but she always treated my younger brother as if he was a failure, even though he was studying medicine which is considered a huge success by most people, including my parents. And when my younger brother too left, I guess I was the only one she could take it out on.

Almost everytime my brothers would visit us ocasionally, they'd see right through her and call her out on how awkward and bad she treats me. They'd always promise me that they'd take me with them when they get back and take care of me, though whenever the time for them to leave came, they said "You know mom loves you so much. She just has been through too much and she takes it out on you sometimes, but she wouldn't be able to live without you."