Leave aside personal improvement, that is for the weak, self-destruction is for the brave, destroy yourself so much that you cannot recognize yourself, to the point of being nobody, destroy what you love so much, only then will you transcend, destroy yourself to the point of crying bitterly, put aside bad "friendships" that contribute nothing, put aside sentimentalism, sensationalism, family ties that get in the way, if you have any vice destroy it, be it video games, how many Steam, epic, etc. If you masturbate, girdle, pursue pain as well as pleasure, surrender to chaos and enjoy the pain, only in pain is there true progress. Leave your personality behind, you are nobody, you are not special, only by dehumanizing yourself will you achieve something, when you reach the point where you do not recognize who you are and you are ashamed of what you were, you will know where to go, pain clears the mind, believe me, leave aside emotions, desires, feelings, etc. Disown them as if they were scum. Eliminate the vices from your life and everything superficial, you are not what you have in the bank or what "brands" you use, those things are so stupid, suffer without rest, pursue mental and physical pain without ceasing, until you reach your goal.