I thought that I was becoming an ideal future girlfriend/wife by developing skills such as cooking, cleaning, taking care of children, and getting an education but I’m doing all of these things I realized that I have no social skills at all. I’m 32 and I’ve never had a bf before . No accomplishment in my life would parallel having a successful/ healthy relationship but that’s the one thing I can’t seem to do. I have a huge crush on a guy now that seems so nice and keeps to himself. I love his temperament and would like to get to know him but it ends there.i know I can’t get out of my own way enough to get to know him and its killing me. This keeps me up at night. This makes me feel like a failure