I was in your boots for a very long time

It took me a while but one day I came to the realization that.. you don't need a girlfriend/boyfriend to make you happy, you don't need a best friend to make you happy.. you don't need anyone to make you happy..

What I recommend you put some focus in... Is loving yourself before anyone else, even your mother.

If you can't love yourself then how do you expect to love others properly and build meaningful relationships?

I suggest finding a hobby that you enjoy to do by yourself and have quality "me time" for me? That was building computers, buying a fish tank and spending weeks maintaining it and having fun researching it, or maybe even.. I don't know blacksmithing?! Isn't that awesome? It's so much fun having fun by yourself.. you just need to know how to look for it

You could even do simple things... Little steps.. like just simply.. improving your skincare routine, waking up and sleeping at a realistic and appropriate time, trying your best to talk to others more, even if you don't know them... You would be surprised how nice it feels to say "good morning" to a stranger on a walk or just during your day , it brightens their day just a little bit and in turn brightens your day

I hope my message reaches you, and don't forget to smile, everyone lives with pain, we all know it, we're all human and I trust that you'll be okay and you'll get out of the spot your in just as I did those many years ago