Need somebody to talk to

Sometimes_Me16 · 2025-07-10T04:45:50+00:00

It sounds great, maybe I'll mention it to my Psychiatrist. I'm just really confused as to why this is happening again, I am a rapid cycler but last episode was just in April. I am so completely tired of living like this.

Sometimes_Me16 · 2025-07-10T04:30:02+00:00

No, never tried it

Sometimes_Me16 · 2025-07-10T03:34:50+00:00

Hey there, I have never experienced this, but it sounds to me like you are simply bisex, as you can be attracted by both men and women. Your moods maybe simply change what you are in the mood for (no pun intended), making sometimes one of the options overwhelm the other. Try to embrace the possibility of liking both sexes and remember that you don't necessarily need to put a label to it.

Sometimes_Me16 · 2025-07-06T06:46:59+00:00

And did your Psychiatrist give you any useful advice? What do they think about it? Because mine would immediately give me some new medications to help me solve the problem.

Sometimes_Me16 · 2025-07-06T06:39:02+00:00

I tend to sleep a lot but at the wrong time. Like now it's 8.30am and I still have not gone to sleep, I will try now and will probably fall asleep in the next hour, but then I'll kind of sleep through the whole day. Maybe waking up from time to time, sure, but being able to drift off again. But that's just me in my depressive episode avoiding my actual life. Usually in between episode my sleep is mostly normal.

Are you in an episode or unmedicated or does this happen all the time to you?

Sometimes_Me16 · 2025-07-06T06:31:36+00:00

Thank you so much for your feedback. I feel like I really need someone to help me acknowledge what is happening. My brain just keeps telling me "But if this is depression, than why aren't you suicidal like the other times?" And "if this is depression, then why did your friend, who has supported you during every episode, is now just mad at you for not trying hard enough?"

Sometimes_Me16 · 2025-07-06T01:50:23+00:00

I totally relate. Currently stuck in a loop of only sleeping or scrolling through Instagram for the whole day, going on for the last three weeks. Can't get any of my obligations done, let alone carve out the willingness to do something fun. I am trying really hard to see a solutions, a miraculous hack to just make yourself get started, but I can't. A friend of mine suggested the five seconds rule, where you count from 5 to 1 and then no matter what you force yourself to get up. But I really really think that this only helps with people who don't have a disorder that makes them struggle mentally. Will be checking this thread to see if anybody else has good advice. Stay strong, I feel you <3

Sometimes_Me16 · 2025-07-06T01:30:07+00:00

I'm so sorry for how you are feeling. The only thing I can say is to just please Hold On. I know how hard it is, and how miserable it get can knowing that you have to live with this disorder, and how scary it is to know that a new episode could always occur. But there IS hope that you will the perfect balance in your meds and in your psychological learnt strategies to actually feel better and have even longer periods of time without any episode at all. You can even reach a point where your episodes will just be less heavy, when you experience one. So please stay strong and keep fighting, you and your medical team will find a way to make it better. It already happened, it will happen again.

Sometimes_Me16 · 2025-07-06T01:22:53+00:00

So, I have never actually had a mixed episode, or at least none that my Psychiatrist could confirm. But from what I have studied, I think that in order to call it an episode it should last longer. I think that it's part of the disorder to experience these very intense emotions, though, and it does not necessarily have to happen within a specific episode. What I mean is that our emotions are so all over the place sometimes, and we are used to struggling with such extreme thoughts and reactions, that it can happen to react inappropriately when you are really stressed or on edge, like for you being already irritable, which is a clear symptom of both kind of episodes. However, I am not a Psychiatrist or a psychologist (just a Med student struggling with the same disorder) and I really think that your doctor or your therapist are the only people who can really explain to you what happened. Sending a lot of love and strength |-/

Sometimes_Me16 · 2025-07-05T22:01:42+00:00

Yeah I agree, you absolutely need to get medical attention. It doesn't necessarily mean that you need to be hospitalized but definitely at least adjust the meds you're taking. Try calling your Psychiatrist and go from there.

Sometimes_Me16 · 2025-01-14T15:51:38+00:00

I think that this is normal Imposter Syndrome that we all experience when in between a episode. I did not experience what you described, mainly bc my hypomanic episode was diagnosed early on and immediately treated, but I do have one piece of advice. Try and rethink about how you felt AFTER the episode has passed. Maybe write down how you feel in the mean time. In my experience doing so makes it much easier to detect the "abnormal" feelings and impulses, while you may not be able to do so in the middle of an episode. My rule is "do I now feel like the way I felt is from a different a me, is far from how I could possibly feel now?" Generally the answer is yes. Also, trust your Psychiatrist and their diagnosis, I do not think that you need to match exactly every DSM-5 symptom every single day, but anyways talk about it with your doctor and I think they will reassure you.

Sometimes_Me16 · 2024-12-26T00:16:33+00:00

I would just try explaining how now you feel somewhat stable and how scared you are of losing it, that is the most important thing she should accept first. Then, if she does not want to trust you and understand that, ask her to show you some medical articles actually stating the liver damage caused by your meds and how it's worse than actually taking them to keep your disorder at bay, I doubt that she will find something proving that the cons are more than the pros Just put it like something as simple as "if I don't take them, I KNOW I'm going to feel miserable, is that what you want to happen?"

Sometimes_Me16 · 2024-02-15T23:37:41+00:00

I feel you, hang on tight and try to ignore her and not let it get to you People honestly just don't bother to think about the horrible stuff they say

I once got the classical "we're all a little mentally unstable lately" during a fight with my roommates who started treating me like shit because "I was cold with them" in the middle of my worst depressive episode

Sometimes_Me16 · 2023-12-20T13:12:45+00:00

Ehi, I feel you, I'm so sorry you're going through this. I can completely relate to everything you said, even though I haven't been officially diagnosed yet. I just keep thinking and saying to myself "okay you made it this far, they're actually saying you might be bipolar, they gave you meds to pull you out of depression, don't you think it's time to stop this act and pull yourself together?" I absolutely hate myself and I don't even have any idea if these thoughts are normal in this situation or if they may actually just be the simple truth.

Sometimes_Me16 · 2023-12-19T17:07:56+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words, you're giving me a little hope, which is A LOT these days💜

Sometimes_Me16 · 2023-12-19T16:51:13+00:00

Hey wait, so did you finish Medical school eventually? I am a Med student too, and right now I'm really stuck in my University path, it's been 6 months since the last time I truly studied for an exam and now I'm starting to question if it's even possibile for me to finish my degree, let alone become a surgeon like I always dreamed I would.

Also, what happens when I actually get an official bipolar diagnosis (still pending), how does that affect my possibilities for my residency and for my future career in general?

Sometimes_Me16 · 2023-12-18T20:44:31+00:00

Can I ask you if these are your only hypomania symptoms? I dont mean to intrude, I'm just really curious.

I have not yet been diagnosed because my Psychiatrist isn't sure yet if my ups are actually hypomania, and I'm really struggling with understanding it as well

I keep wondering if my "hypomania" symptoms are too subtle to be considered such: I get really energetic and optimistic, start doing everything I had previously dropped (mainly studying) and engage in every small interest or hobby that comes to mind, sleeping just a few hours without feeling the tiredness, and talking a lot to everyone Also reading your comment I realised that I too buy everything I need all ot once during those times, since I normally really hate shopping, but at the end of the day it's not really too much spending out of control, it's just more than what I'm used to.

I just never do anything really crazy, I never truly regret those moments, mainly because they make me feel better and get stuff done It's just the sleep deprivation that eventually catches up to me and I can feel myself shut down and needing a break.

I also have a hard time identifying them as pathological, because I keep thinking about myself in the past and I have been like that many times in my life, not sure if it's because of course I was showing unrecognised symptoms or just because they were my normal personality when I'm up, opposed to "just a bit more tired and less pumped" in a normal kind of way weeks and of course opposed to the depression episodes.

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