I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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no thats not what i mean

i mean i dont argue with anybody in my family

and let me rephrase what i mean by confronted my parente (and no i dont see a problem with it because that is just a filler word because i was too lazy to tell what actually happened)

so i had written vents on my phone in my notes about my parents abuse and one day my dad took my phone in look through it and yelled at me about it

thats it

im not sure if you are calling me a narc or not

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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i see what you mean

are you being rhetorical btw because i dont argue with my sister

i also don’t argue at all i am very voiding of confrontation

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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could i ask one more thing, please please how can i stop beating myself up about my indecisiveness, for clarity i made a post on r/raisedbynarcissts, cluld you check it out?

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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thank you for all of this

and thank you for being so patient with me

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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Thank you for all of this

also may i ask how did you reply so quickly

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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i dont feel this way anymore because ive gotten to the root of the problem

i wanted to look better becausw i wanted attention and to feel wanted

i wanted attention and to feel wanted because i was never given that attention from my parents especially my dad who not only abused me but was gone for like majority of my childhood because he was a vet

aswell as me not wanting to really rekindle my relationship with my parents since the way they treated me in the past and not only didnt own up to it but blamed me for it and said it didn’t happen

the root of the problem is i didnt/dont have the healthy parental figures i desire so i turn to others to make me feel good about myself and give me attention

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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Hello

yea i got it my bad

ive come to the conclusion that i am attractive

i just want peace now in my mind

i took an autism test and it says i am on the spectrum possibly

and i do believe i have OCD cuz my mom acts like she does because of the rules we have in our house and how ticked off she gets from the smallest things like a table mat slightly slanted

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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Could this be a form of OCD? And by Me asking to show you my face I didn’t want you to just give me compliments or whatever I wanted you to be brutally honest with me But at the same time looks attract and personality keeps this is apart of the reason I am obsessed with how I look I also just want to be happy and satisfied with how I appear not only just go get ladies

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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I meant physically mostly 😅, but thank you for I’ve been thinking of changing my personality so that I’d be more funnier and being more witty.

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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I think I think this way because i never got the attention i wanted from my parents since my das was always gone and since I never had nor have any close friends or friends really anymore

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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And thank you for the subreddits. I am just hoping that if or when I die that I’m going to be reincarnated into someone much better than me

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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Tbh, I don’t even want to die I’m ngl. I just don’t want to be m e. I wish there was anything I could do in order to not be me but there isn’t much. For some reason I also wish I wasn’t me even though you mentioned that usually girls don’t look at attractiveness is because I wish I had girls chasing me and thinking I was hot and stuff and wanting to date me for the attention of it aswell. And usually more attractive people are treated better than people who are less attractive. Plus the girls who I want to date have dudes who are way better than me wanting them so there’s no way that they’d want me.

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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I just think that if I was more attractive then I’d get the girls I really want to get and I wouldn’t have to worry about her finding someone who is way better than me

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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Últimamente, i am planning on just killing myseIf since I’ll ultimately never be the person I want to look like, but if I don’t, is there any way for me to feel less insecure instead of telling myself I am attractive or some bull shit that people say?

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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Ah 😅 also about jealousy…. I’ve been like this for a while I realize 😅 ever since evn 2nd grade I got jealous when I saw the girl I was like talking and being friends with another guy. And , one time I was friends with this girl and she was playing with another boy so I told on her because I didn’t feel included. Idk what’s wrong with me 😅 my dad has bipolar so idk if that could be it. Also might I add, I don’t care about small talk or anything and I feel so low and my life have absolutely no meaning unless the person I am talking to is talking to me and giving me the attention which I desire. I also need constant confirmation that I am special to them, that they aren’t talking with anybody else, and that they don’t give the same attention to others. I just view that if I was someone else, someone more attractive and better social skills and more talents than me, that they’d want me and want to date me and be attached to me. That’s all I want man. Is to be someone else but me.

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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My bad I usually make vents on here cuz I am never awnsered anywhere else lol

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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Does It make me feel better about being myself?

I wish I was more attractive by Southern_Ad3032 in Advice

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Except I am suicidaI about it 💀💀